last time i updated was exactly a year tomorrow... That is so odd ( Read more... )

took a chance, for the first time in my life. i put myself out there, then rejection. damn that sucks.

its odd how much one person can be in your life. I was with matt for close to a year and a half. he was my best friend and the person i wanted to share everything with. its funny how things change. i still care about him deeply, i still consider him one of my best friends. but i am home now, back in NJ, college is over, and it seems like that ( Read more... )

So i guess i should start updating again ( Read more... )

I am OFFICIALLY Scuba certified as of today! YAY! I spend the past two days diving in a quarry with my roomates and it was sooo fun! Now we will be certified for life as open water divers. Next step is to get the advanced certification. I think i'll do a few dives for fun first. should be a good summer :)

Well things sure do happen fast...I found out monday night that I got accepted into a graduate program for Cosmetic Chemistry. It is a two year program, so I would have a masters degree at 23. All this change is hard. Im a little worried about losing touch with matt. I feel like we are already drifting apart and I don't like that. Our lives ( Read more... )

this is unbelievable. I am graduating from college in 26 days. it is the absolute last thing i want to do. i love my life here. i don't want to go back to the life i had before.

So i have been home today doing some soul searching, reading old journals, books, and pulling SARK off the shelves. It was about this time 4 years ago when I needed this support, when I was graduating high school. Now i am graduating college and more lost than ever. I went back to where it started on the old fashioned SARK MMB (Marvelous message ( Read more... )

Dallas, Texas. i just don't have any words. i dont think i can deal with this...

oh my god, so i might be having a panic attack, matt just texted me and told me he knows where hyatt hotels is puting him next year. im supposed to meet him in an hour and a half, i dont want to know, oh god, im pathetic, this sucks. what if he is half the country away? why did i let myself fall in love with him again?