am i wasting my breath ( Read more... )

so i got a job today.
Thank god.
At the new applebee's at marysville, as a server.
I'm pumped. i have training starting saturday.

Annnd saturday is leah&rachels 21st Bday party, I am so fucking excited

All this week I've basically been in cheerleading camp, teaching my little sister, prepping her for tryouts.

ugh.

2 months ( Read more... )

things are continuing to go foward and progress ( Read more... )

washington was fucking insane ( Read more... )

for the first time in my entire fucking 20 years. im ready to be sorry, happy, and guilty, and hopeful ( Read more... )

Failure is an opportunity. If you blame someone else you will never stop blaming. Fulfill your own obligations, correct your own mistakes. Do what you need to do and demand nothing of others. What is rooted will grow. What is recent can be fixed. what is brittle will break. Prevent trouble before it finds you, put things in order before they exist ( Read more... )

so things are going slowly uphill.
i got my widom teeth pulled yesterday and ive been fucked up off these damn pain pills since. they make me really woozy.
going to campus tonight.
start work at waffle house monday.

I try to lose myself. I try to forget where I am and why I'm here, I try to forget about what lies in front of me. i try to forget about anything. i try to forget that there is a world outside of that which is my head and i try to forget that there is a world within my head. I try to forget this whole fucking mess. I walk, stare, try to lose, try ( Read more... )

today was stressful ( Read more... )