well I got out of the house for I bit yesterday and went to fiesta. I want the new hatebreed cd. anyone want to get it for me? Im fuckin tired. someone better come over today. I think Im going to recolor my hair black and probably redo the red in it. that will be the extent of my day today. how fun! alright Im out.

well I have nothing to do and I should be doing my homework but Im not. Im a loser like that. Im bored as fuck right now and nobody is calling me and everyone should be. you guys all fuckin suck. psh... what friends you guys are...

well this detention thing is getting old. Im not going to fuck up anymore like I did. Im putting my life on track. this blows. all my friends are having fun without me and Im missing everthing. I need out of the house. someone kidnap me.

last night was awesome. bryan katie and brys gf sam came over. theyre all funny kids and I love them with all my heart. I dont know what Id do without my friends. Im so happy for bryan. he found a wonderful girl that makes him so incredilbly happy. I love seeing that kid happy. thank you for making ma boy happy kiddo! this home detention kindea ( Read more... )

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tori is a fuckin idiot! woo hoo!. Im over it YIPPEE! the world its turning and shes falling off. lol. she is so stupid and hurt full its unbeleivable. I dont EVER want to associate with her again and this time I mean it. so tori... this is for you...

FUCK OFF YOU STUPID PEICE OF SHIT!

well... hmm... life? boring as fuck. I need something exciting in my life. something I enjoy and that is different. Im sick of the same old shit over and over. girls are fuckin stupid. I cant stand em anymore. nothing they do or say makes any fuckin sense. are there any normal girls out there? if so send one my way cuz Ive never met one before.

well Im STARTING to feel a little better. Im still going ot go insane though. I need to leave my house for a while. I think Im going to go camping or something on christmas break when I get off this shit. anyone wanna come?

someone please come over...

I havnt been happy for a long time. I dont see it happening either. Im tired of being depressed. Im starting to make myself sick. I miss you. I love you. you know this. I screw myself too many times. I hurt. really bad. I bleed with emotions that are hitting me as hard as rock and I cant take it anymore. I dont know how I get up every morning. ( Read more... )

why is life so mean to me. what am I to say? what am I to do?
goodbye.