SAT- ch 8
Chapter 8: Moving On
POV: Kato Rosa
Here are the lists I made after that stupid kiss:
1. Do not call or email Haru-kun.
2. Do not pass the basketball court.
3. Do not pass their classroom.
Isn’t it very easy? Yeah it was, writing this list. But, moving on? I’m trying to. Especially, when I saw Haru-kun with a girl-her hands were locked on his. They were acting NORMAL with his friends and having fun-it hurts, big time. How I wished, I was the one, he’s holding hand with. I guess this is all what he wanted, and I think he’s cousin approve of her.
“Her name is Aoki Aya.” Hiro choke out, one time we saw them from distance. “She was 3-A’s princess.” I can see that. Prince and Princess being together not like me who is just a pauper.
In the attic, everything was perfect. REALLY. I don’t how many times, I’d say this, but really it’s perfect. Again, the sarcastic Hiro came back. “It was a synthetic relationship set up in a synthetic world. The attic wasn’t the real world. If you would get stuck with Kazunari Ninomiya-san of Arashi there, of course you would fall for him and vice versa. But it would never last, really. I’m so sorry Ro-chan.”
The same week when I confessed to Mr. O that I lied, he didn’t require me to work there anymore. Good thing too, cause sneezing in their house without Haru-kun is a torture. When a mouse would attack me, I wish he was there and chase it out.
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Tonight we’ll go to Hiro’s house to plan, for the school festival. So, I lie here on my bed and listening to my iPod; killing time. I was miserable because I never got to tell him how much he hurted my feelings, but he was right: he was always hurting my feelings. And I don’t think he even cared.
The next song was, loving the Loving the Alien by velvet Revolver, and it hurted my ears just listening to them; though I absolutely adore this song.
Sometimes I think I'm scared
Sometimes I know
I feel like making love
Sometimes I don't
I feel like letting go
Maybe not
I feel like giving up
Is all we got
Sometimes is all the time
And never means maybe
Sometimes is all the time
Maybe
And I'm moving on
And I'm moving on
(Sometimes I feel alone)
And I'm moving on
And I'm moving on
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When I got there, Yuki and Hiro were sitting in his bed, with beers and chips on his table. It kind of made me shock. I’m not a big drinker, but I feel like getting drunk now.
“For planning and….” He stopped as he gets one can and passed it to me. “For moving on?”
“Yeah!” we both guzzled down the can of a beer like a pro. My head is kind of spinning now. I looked on the label it says, ‘25% alcohol’.
“The thing is, we’re not here to drink but to plan what we’ll do for the school festival.”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah.” Hiro answered acerbically and we both laugh. Yuki just roll her eyes and ate chips.
“Any suggestion for the upcoming festival?” Yuki asked.
“How about selling our old things? Since it’s a charitable work.” I said. Then Hiro pass another can of beer to me.
“Not a bad idea. But, do you think someone will buy our old stuffs?”
“I think, that is a better idea. Anyway, our classmates would just give other suggestion.”
Then my thought flew again, until it reaches my memories with Haru-kun. Actually, there was no time of the day that I don’t think of him. Even though I like him, he has already a girlfriend. I don’t want him to forget me-our memories together. We have similar dreams yet we can’t even talk to each other in public.
“I’m going home. I feel tired already” I said wobbling around as I stood up. Hiro and Yuki just looked at me oddly. I ran out of their house, with Hiro following me.
“Ro-chan! Matte kudasai! (wait)” He called out.
“Where’s Yuki?”
“she have to stay in our house, in case my parent would come back.”
“Oh. is your head spinning?” I asked.
“A little.” He said blushing we both laugh. If Hiro wasn’t a gay my best friend, I could have like him. I look up the sky, the stars were shining brightly. I wonder what does Haru-kun, do right now. Ugh. Enough, I must stop thinking about him. I sat on the street, I buried my head on my hands, Hiro is resting on the tree.
“Hiro?”
“Hmm?”
“Do you think I’m ugly that’s why Haru-kun doesn’t like me?”
“WHAAAT?! Of course not! Oh my God Rosa, have you look on yourself in the mirror? You’re one of the cutest students in our campus. Maybe Haru-kun is the gay between the two of us, cause he cant even admit his feelings for you!”
We both laugh; I stood up and went to hug him. “Come on, I’ll take you home.” He said, he reached for my hand and I took it. I lean on his shoulders, while walking. Then I stop, he stopped too. I look at his eyes, grab both his hands and lean closer to his face. I started to reach for his lips---
“Oi! Kato Rosa!!! This is Hiro! Your best friend! Geez.” He said, I look down, I wanted to cry. I sat down on the street again.
“Oi, Hiro pick up on someone your own size!” A familiar voice suddenly surrounds the road-it was Haru-kun. “Why are you molesting Ro-chan? Aren’t you a gay?” He started pushing Hiro, but he didn’t back down.
“What do you care about Rosa? Where’s your girlfriend?!”
“Rosa is my friend too! I don’t like it when people harassing or maltreat her!”
“Maltreat her?!” Hiro yelled. I never hear him yell like this before, and it almost gave me a heart attack. “If here is one person who maltreats her-it’s you!! You’re the one who broke her heart, You’re the one who causes her sleepless nights!”
Haru-kun didn’t answer, he rushed over my side and pull my wrist. “Rosa, come one. I’ll take you home.” He sniffed the some air and asks, “Did you drink?” then he look at Hiro and smirk, “Did he try to get you drunk and take advantage?”
Hiro and I burst to laugh. I tried to stand up, but I was stumbling my way. Luckily, Hiro was fast to catch me.
“You don’t have to worry about me. Go and look for your girlfriend! Hiro and I will go now. Besides, you don’t want to be seen with me in public right?!” I said. Hiro held my hands. “I can’t believe, I fell in love with a guy like you. I just waste my time thinking on our stupid memories which you don’t even treasure!”
“If you were just braver, you could have just told her that you love her, dimwit!” Hiro yells and we walk away.
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“Hiro, I’m sorry I didn’t mean to do that to you.” I said apologetically.
“It’s okay. Ro-chan?”
“Hmm?”
“I’m so proud of you.” He said and hugs me.
“Why?”
“You finally stood him up. He was so speechless when you said to him.”
“Really? But I think I went overboard.”
“No, it’s okay.”
“Anyway, thank for defending me back there.”
“No problem. We’re best friend right?” I nod and smile happily.
“Hiro…”
“hmm?”
“I have a confession to make.”
“What is it?”
“It wasn’t really what I wanted to say to him. “ I pause, and then he looks at me strangely. “I want to say, ‘thanks for the memories, I’ll treasure it.’ Blah blah.”