Application~

Sep 27, 2009 22:30

Name: Michael Steer
I wish to be stamped as a...:
[ ] Male
[ ] Female
[x] Doesn't matter



BACKGROUND
Interests/Hobbies: My interests are varied. I'm interested in literature, of course. I tend to score especially well for that subject because I have a passion for it, and I would actively participate in class. I would sometimes even challenge the opinions of teachers in a respectful manner, participating in a short debate about the character traits of some of the protagonists. I like writing as well,as I was attracted to crafting stories on paper since young. I wrote many, many stories in the past, and I still do have that love for writing. I have an interest in psychology and philosophy as well, and a fascination with the unknown and the mystic, like tarot and astrology. I enjoy video games as well, and Castlevania was one of the first franchises that I really got into. My first Castlevania game was Symphony of the Night, and I loved it since, but my favorite in the series was Aria of Sorrow. My hobbies include being on the internet, searching randomly for something that interests me, speaking to friends through Messenger, listening to music and just, being a normal teenager. I'm not exactly sporty or athletic, and I tend to be more of the "nerd", gaming, reading and the sort.
Strengths/Positives: I have heard that I'm really mature for my age. I philosophize and think too much for a fourteen year old, and I have engaged in philosophical discussions with others. I have also heard that I'm really modest as well, but I would say that it's just me being all paranoid about losing again. I'm really ambitious and competitive if I'm motivated, and there was a period of time where I would do anything to get to the top to prove my self-worth. I'm also really sentimental and emotional, being a Piscean, and my personality greatly hinges on what I'm currently feeling. If I'm feeling alright, I'd be happy and cheerful, but I could change greatly and become depressive the next. It might seem like a bad thing, all right, but it works strangely. When I'm feeling on top of the world, I write excellently, putting my heart and soul into it. When I'm depressed, I write and somehow, I feel really fulfilled after that. I've been told that I'm a really sweet and nice person to speak to, and I do have a sort of double personality of sorts. I can be serious, yet fun at the same time, or so I've heard.
Weaknesses/Negatives: I'm overly pessimistic. I can feel down in the dumps about simply nothing in particular, and I have been told that I react too badly to situations which could easily be solved. I'm quite nervous and whiny, and I'd complain and feel hopeless quite often. Also, I have heard that I'm a know-it-all in school. I don't respect the opinions of others and always want things to get done my own way, especially when I'm nervous. I do have a temper, although I try to control it, and I have violent tendencies that I would prefer not to use unless I'm really riled up. I can be incredibly mean at times also, teasing my sister until she's about to cry, but that only happens when I'm either angry or incredibly bored. Depending on my mood, I can be really rebellious or obedient. If I agree with what my parents are doing, I'd listen to them. If not, I can be incredibly stubborn and refuse to give way, like what happened a few days earlier, with them pressurizing me to attend Mass. I refused and didn't change my decision until they gave way and left without me. I'm quite a perfectionist, overly so, actually. It's either a routine, or nothing. If my routine is challenged, I'd rather not go at all. If I think that doing something is pointless, like heading for a certain cram school, I wouldn't go for it, and I didn't, missing several lessons in a row. I'm also incredibly paranoid about everything that seemed to be posing a danger to me. Even the smallest insect can catch my attention. I do have a colossal amount of self-doubt, constantly asking myself if that's the right way to go and do things, or if I'm doing something wrong. I think that's enough, because I can't think of any other traits about myself which are significant enough to be added into the application.
What do you love?: I love being appreciated. If I feel that I'm neglected or ignored by my group of friends, I'd hide into my shell and refuse to speak to them at all, only speaking when it's an absolute necessity. I love green tea as well, not going through a single meal without it. In fact, nearly my whole family does, so yeah. I like feeling fulfilled. If I'm sure that what I'm doing is bringing me closer to a goal, and that I didn't waste the day away, I'd be happier than ever. I love video games, and I feel that I can learn many things from them. Really, each video game that I fancy possesses a story that is incredibly beautiful and epic, and I can imagine myself in that situation. I love romances as well, since I'm rather idealistic, and I do hope that I do find someone whom I could cherish with all my heart. I love my friends and certain family members, especially those who have helped me a great deal. Without them, I wouldn't be here right now. I love mystical things, like tarot and astrology, and I'm rather addicted to stamping communities. I feel that they do give us greater understanding on who we are and what our role is in this world.
What do you hate?: Arrogance and obnoxiousness. I hate those people who think that they're better than everyone else and that no one else is deserving of their attention. I do possess some of that at times, so I guess I do hate that in myself as well. I hate immorality and crime. Rape is especially despicable, taking the chastity of a woman by force. It's no different from stealing, but in this case, it's worst. Murder isn't half as bad as rape, I feel, but it's still not a good solution to your problems. A life is of absolute importance, and the snuffing out of that had better be for a good reason. I dislike sandals and slippers, preferring to wear shoes even in the summertime. Wearing slippers just makes me feel exposed, for some reason. Another thing I hate is feeling inferior to others. If there's someone I perceive to be better than me, it always ends up making me feel inadequate, for some reason. I hate feeling as if I don't have control over my life. It's always under the control of something. My parents, society, the school, it's not my life anymore if I don't live it the way I want to.
Describe yourself in three words: Flawed and human. There, three words.

CHOOSE
Justice or Revenge?: Justice. Revenge is merely to satisfy one's own personal grudges against another person, and the cycle of revenge will never stop. You'll kill this person who killed your loved one, and the victim's loved one would kill you, and your friend would continue killing him to avenge your death. Justice is fair, unbiased and lawful. Justice doesn't kill because it wants to. It does what it has to do because it's needed for keeping down the vile insects who don't deserve to be with the rest of us. I'm a firm believer in capital punishment, because justice is needed to be dealt to people who throw away their humanity and harm others for their own, sick pleasure.
Light or Darkness?: If you're speaking about the time of day, I'd choose darkness anytime. Darkness is so melancholic, with the absence of the sun, and the whole world is reflected in a sad shade of violet, gradually turning into a dark, bitter darkness. It's really beautiful, how the city lights shine in the night. If you're speaking about my alignment, whether I would consider myself a Light-aligned person or a Dark-aligned one, I would say that I do have both of them in myself. I'm definitely no saint, but I'm not a devil myself. I'm just incredibly flawed and human, just like all of us.
Love or Ambition?: Love. Ambition gets you only so far. A drive for being the best cannot and will not last. Sooner or later, you'll find that in your ruthlessness to get what you want, you neglect those important to you. I'd choose love anytime. Love, be it in the romantic sense, familial sense or just plain love in general, is a powerful force. It makes us into more than just human. We help each other, because we love each other. Our souls are connected as one, and our selfish, bestial instincts are ignored in favor of helping those we hold dear. In particular, romantic love is the most beautiful. Just sharing your future with the person you love, living out your lives in peace is an ideal ending for me.
Forgiveness or Resentment?: I try to forgive and forget, and for the most part, I do and with ease. I don't remember what others did to me, be it the nice things and the cruel, mean things that they did. However, I do find myself incapable of forgiving a few people entirely. I don't resent anyone, of course, but even when the hatred and anger fades, there's this awkwardness around those people which cannot be erased. As for society in general, I'd say that we should forgive as many as possible. However, that depends as well. If the criminals are vile beings that don't deserve our forgiveness, then it's alright to continue hating him.
Courage or Cunning?: Cunning. I'm not a coward, by any means, but I would say that I'm much more cunning. In the past, I would lie and do so naturally, to get to what I want, which was the best in the entire school. This year, I try not to do so, but it's still there. I'm not courageous in the usual sense of the word, but I do muster up my courage to do things that I'd be scared of. For example, a camp a few months back required us to face our fears and climb down a five-storey building, with a rope, of course. I was really, really scared, but I did it anyway, to prove to myself that I'm not a coward.

ARE YOU MORE...
Optimistic or Pessimistic?: Pessimistic. I'm not entirely pessimistic, of course, but I do find myself gravitating to that most of the time. Like I said, it depends on my mood. If I'm feeling happy, naturally, I'd find myself having a greater amount of optimism and perkiness, no? However, by and large, I'd say that I'm pessimistic. I always gravitate to the worst-case scenarios first, even when the situation hasn't progressed that bad, and I'd panic and whine about every small thing in particular.
Manipulative or Unassuming?: Hm, it's hard to say. I'm not manipulative unless I have a reason to, and I'm generally unassuming in most situations, I should think, but I do have my manipulative tendencies. I would have lied to a friend, to cause him to have his guard down in the past, but I would say that I prefer not to do so unless I have no other choice, to further my cause that I think such measures are required. I'm generally unassuming. I don't go into situations thinking of manipulating this person or that. I tend to be genuine towards others, especially so if the person was someone I really cherished and I was comfortable being around.
Leader or Follower?: I do have an adequate amount of leadership abilities, but generally, I tend to shy away from the leadership position, at least, officially. The responsibility on your shoulders is really scary, and you're not only responsible for your own well-being, but also the situation of others. It's quite burdensome. I could be a follower, but I would find myself taking on a pseudo-leadership position in the group somehow, so I would say that I'm more of a leader. However, I think I work best alone, because it's the best measure of your ability, and there would be no distractions. To constantly work alone is boring, of course, but it gets the most work done.
Outspoken or Reserved?: It depends. I'm generally quiet and really reserved, especially in a situation where I don't know most of the people or when I'm in an uncomfortable surrounding, but if I'm feeling comfortable speaking to you, I'd become rather outspoken. You can't go into surroundings just speaking to everyone, but it's worth just observing the situation for a while or so before making any friends. If the topic is one I'm passionate in, I'd really become outspoken and talkative, of course. I'm generally really awkward speaking to the opposite gender, maintaining a good amount of distance between us.
Arrogant or Humble?: I've heard that I'm really humble, but I do have my own prideful moments, especially when I'm agitated or when I'm being around people who constantly look down on others. If they don't extend the respect that others deserve, why should I be nice towards these people? I wouldn't be actively arrogant, but I'd maintain a good distance and my friends have remarked that when I'm not speaking to a person, I do look rather arrogant and prideful, so I think they'll get the message.

QUESTIONS
What do you think of humanity?: Humanity is flawed. You can't deny that. We are capable of monstrosities beyond compare, like world wars, nuclear explosions and the sort. However, we are also geniuses. We came up with such advanced means of communications, being able to speak to anyone at virtually any time of the day, live in high-rise buildings and in comfort. No other animal in the earth has managed all these, so I'd say that we've proven ourselves to be really smart. However, how we use that intellect is what is most important. Humans are also always chained by things such as materialism, pride and a lust for more than what we already have. Some of us are also capable of acts such as rape, murder and the sort. We're complete monsters in a point of view, since we are the catalyst for the world's slow destruction, but like I said, humanity has unlimited potential, be it for technological advances or for the good of the world. In short, it's really complex.
What would you change about the world if you could?: I'd make everyone less selfish and concerned about themselves. We would be more concerned about other people, helping whenever we need to, and selfishness and lies would be things of the past. We would awaken to our true spiritual selves, and understand the world, how it lives, and our purpose here. We would be an ideal society, helping one another to success while aiming for the same success ourselves. Murder and rape would be non-existent, since the darkness in humankind would be essentially extinguished, replaced by a desire to help others. It'd be the groundwork for a ideal society, an utopia where peace would reign forever and there would be no war and sadness. Sadly, it's impossible, since we're too corrupted for that.
How do you react when someone wrongs you?: I'd want to prove my innocence, of course. There was once, when someone accused me of breaking his pen. It ended up blowing up, and we were called to the front. I was told to explain myself, and I proved sufficiently that I was not the culprit, and that I could not be, because I was doing something else at that time. I proved it sufficiently, and I was admired for quite some time after that. However, it really depends, because I might not be as calm and composed to think my way out of the situation.
What traits do you admire in others?: I admire intelligence and competence most of all, followed by a kind heart and a desire to help others. Most of us have the above, but we don't have that kindness to help other people at the expense of oneself. Thus, the people that I generally admire, and look up to, are the ones with both qualities. They are intelligent and strong in what they are doing, yet they have the kind heart needed to help other people without only thinking of themselves and their welfare.
How do you typically deal with antagonistic people? Do you try to ignore them or do you confront them head-on?: Well, if they don't actively provoke me, I think I'm fine with them. However, if they keep coming to annoy me, I'd threaten them and ask them to get away. I'm not exactly all that scary, so I don't think they will do so. I'd probably end up wanting to avoid them, rather than confront them, because I don't think I'd be able to chase them away sufficiently. However, there was this person in my school, who played dirty in the football matches. He was facing off against our group, and I just decided to confront him and play dirty in my own way, because there was no reason to play fairly against someone like that. Well, I knocked him and he fell onto the ground a few times, but yeah. It depends on my mood.

SITUATIONAL
You're making your way through a dark, gloomy forest. Are you uneasy about being here, or are you confident in your safety? Or you maybe feel at home here, with not a care in the world?: I'd be uneasy, of course. If I was with someone whom I could trust and I felt that he was strong enough to be with, for our self-protection, I'd be more confident, but I'd be really paranoid and wary if I were alone. I'd try to get out of the forest and head to somewhere more populated for the night. Traversing the forest would be better done in the morning, I feel.
While in this forest, you run across some lone travelers. They seem lost and scared. What do you do? Do you try to assist them? Do you ignore them?: I don't think I'll approach them. I don't know if they are friend or foe, so I'll ignore them and keep trying to find a way out, but I'll keep an eye on them just the same. They might seem lost and frightened, but that could also be a ploy. In these situations, my survival would be more important than theirs, so I'd leave them and continue walking.
Uh oh! Looks like these "travelers" are actually hungry vampires. They lunge at you, eager to enjoy your blood. What's your next move?: I'd try to run, of course! However, I don't think I'm faster than vampires, so I'd probably try to kick dust into their faces or do the Sign of the Cross, if that could help in any way. If I miraculously escape from their vampiric clutches, I'd run to somewhere safe, like a church or a tavern and recuperate there. If I don't make it, well, I'd be a vampire just like them. That's obvious, right?

Anything else you think we should know?: Nah. You could always ask, but I think I've described enough.

Finally, please vote on three previous unstamped applications and place the links here:
#1 -http://community.livejournal.com/cv_stamps/1555.html?view=2579#t2579
#2 -http://community.livejournal.com/cv_stamps/2099.html#cutid1
#3 -

((I'm the second person to post the application up. I'll post the remaining when more come, I promise.))

stamped: alucard

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