I can't even lift up the Gatorade right now that I want to drink. Maybe after a few months of pain something will come about. This relieves stress because now all I worry about is my body hurting. It makes me forget about my brain and heart.
This is the most single I've felt in my life. I don't want ties anymore. At least until I find someone worth it. But this feels good. I can just be myself again. I haven't felt like me in forever. I remember I felt really awesome at one point and then I just went downhill. Time to go back up. I'm giving college a real chance this time.