Kiss of Death - 5th chapter - The Red Carpet Grave
I dunno... Is there anything I should say???
Hellsing and it's characters DO NOT belong to me!!! This is just a fan-made fic and I don't get any profit from writing this!!!
But you know... I really wish Girlycard to be mine... T-T (S)he's so sexy... (drools)
Alucard took me to Integra's office. The woman really was pissed off - does she really care? It isn't that long ago we met and so I was surprised. I was really happy and found myself smiling even when she was yelling at me. I was not affected by her words, not even a little. But I had to regret believing she would never look for me nor even notice I'm missing.
"Thank you." I told her when she paused in her yelling to take a breath. "And I'm really sorry about what happened. I got lost." I explained, now when I know how much of a problem I can be I feel sorry - she must have been so worried, I can never know what she went through. "I promise it won't happen again." Just an empty promise - I know, but I have a need to promise her this even if I'll break it probably soon. Integra gave a sigh and took one of her cigarettes. "Fine. This time I'll let it slide. Walter will show you around later today so until then be a good boy and don't go wandering around." I gave a nod to that. For now I can only hope to remember the whole mansion. "Alucard, take him to his room."
I looked up - this whole time Alucard stood next to me and now he will take me to my room. I feel like an idiot - my God knows where my room is but I have no idea about it's location... Sad, isn't it? But the good thing is that from all the people around he will take me there. He and no one else. And so we walked down the billions of stairs - what did I say about stairs today?! Oh, Christ, you son of a bitch! I so know you're doing this on purpose! - and stopped in front of my room which I left about four hours ago. I opened it, took a deep breath and turned to look at the vampire king - but he was gone. My God left me alone in front of my room without even a "goodbye"?
I know that he will never see me as a person he could love, he could cherish, he could spend eternity with - but I am still naïve enough to believe, I want to believe, I need to believe that maybe one day he will hold me close to his heart. Would my chances be higher if I were a vampire? Or would I turn into dust in a blink of an eye? But I am not a vampire - I am a Hellsing, a child of a vampire killer who's father was also a vampire killer and so it goes on… Does he hate me for the name Hellsing? Can it be the only reason why I'm still alive? He doesn't look like one to play with his food but then what exactly is he doing?
I let myself fall on the bed my cell phone in hand - I admit, I enjoy writing text messages - and check my in-box. It seems no one misses me but on other hand that's a good thing - I wish to stay here as long as possible - whole summer if I could. When I leave this place… will someone miss me? Or will things easily change back to how they used to be before I came into the picture? Will memories of these days fade away and will I be forgotten? Or will Integra at least give me a call once in a while to know I'm alive and kicking?
Will Alucard miss me?
As a person or just as a toy… will he remember my name? Or will he simply find someone else for his cruel games? "You think too much…" My body grew cold - a God is speaking to me. "Don't forget that love and lust, bloodlust are different things." I forced my body to work properly and sat up my head turned to the side where there darkness lies - and there two red eyes were shining like moon, watching me carefully. My God never left me… but does that mean he'll stay with me forever?
My God, please, protect me from yourself because you are killing me…
Hellsing and it's characters DO NOT belong to me!!! This is just a fan-made fic and I don't get any profit from writing this!!!
But you know... I really wish Girlycard to be mine... T-T (S)he's so sexy... (drools)
Alucard took me to Integra's office. The woman really was pissed off - does she really care? It isn't that long ago we met and so I was surprised. I was really happy and found myself smiling even when she was yelling at me. I was not affected by her words, not even a little. But I had to regret believing she would never look for me nor even notice I'm missing.
"Thank you." I told her when she paused in her yelling to take a breath. "And I'm really sorry about what happened. I got lost." I explained, now when I know how much of a problem I can be I feel sorry - she must have been so worried, I can never know what she went through. "I promise it won't happen again." Just an empty promise - I know, but I have a need to promise her this even if I'll break it probably soon. Integra gave a sigh and took one of her cigarettes. "Fine. This time I'll let it slide. Walter will show you around later today so until then be a good boy and don't go wandering around." I gave a nod to that. For now I can only hope to remember the whole mansion. "Alucard, take him to his room."
I looked up - this whole time Alucard stood next to me and now he will take me to my room. I feel like an idiot - my God knows where my room is but I have no idea about it's location... Sad, isn't it? But the good thing is that from all the people around he will take me there. He and no one else. And so we walked down the billions of stairs - what did I say about stairs today?! Oh, Christ, you son of a bitch! I so know you're doing this on purpose! - and stopped in front of my room which I left about four hours ago. I opened it, took a deep breath and turned to look at the vampire king - but he was gone. My God left me alone in front of my room without even a "goodbye"?
I know that he will never see me as a person he could love, he could cherish, he could spend eternity with - but I am still naïve enough to believe, I want to believe, I need to believe that maybe one day he will hold me close to his heart. Would my chances be higher if I were a vampire? Or would I turn into dust in a blink of an eye? But I am not a vampire - I am a Hellsing, a child of a vampire killer who's father was also a vampire killer and so it goes on… Does he hate me for the name Hellsing? Can it be the only reason why I'm still alive? He doesn't look like one to play with his food but then what exactly is he doing?
I let myself fall on the bed my cell phone in hand - I admit, I enjoy writing text messages - and check my in-box. It seems no one misses me but on other hand that's a good thing - I wish to stay here as long as possible - whole summer if I could. When I leave this place… will someone miss me? Or will things easily change back to how they used to be before I came into the picture? Will memories of these days fade away and will I be forgotten? Or will Integra at least give me a call once in a while to know I'm alive and kicking?
Will Alucard miss me?
As a person or just as a toy… will he remember my name? Or will he simply find someone else for his cruel games? "You think too much…" My body grew cold - a God is speaking to me. "Don't forget that love and lust, bloodlust are different things." I forced my body to work properly and sat up my head turned to the side where there darkness lies - and there two red eyes were shining like moon, watching me carefully. My God never left me… but does that mean he'll stay with me forever?
My God, please, protect me from yourself because you are killing me…