Kiss of Death - 8th chapter - Evidence
I forgot to post this O.o Oh well...
Hellsing and it's characters DO NOT belong to me!
My dreams weren't calm, they were cruel and painful, even morbid I could say. Because of that I woke up every hour until I gave up sleeping that day. And even sober the walls screamed at me, cursed me - Lucifer, I was turning mad. I needed something to calm my wild heart but what? The creature I need, my sweetest drug, turned his back on me - how cruel this world can be… I sat on my bed feeling the walls closing on me. Madness, insanity - I was so close to loosing my mind, I had to get out of this room.
And so I walked and walked - my mind racing - without a pause, until I ran into someone, or did he or she ran into me? I don't know, it was too hard to concentrate on reality and my thoughts at once. "Ups, pardon me." From the ground I stared at Miss Victoria who was by now giving me a hand. "Thank you. Shouldn't you be sleeping?" Miss Victoria - or Seras, I believe she asked me to call her that yesterday - shrugged. "Probably, but I'm not tired." I wish I could say the same about myself, but sadly I was dead tired and I didn't dare to fall asleep by now. "And where are you going? If you're bored we can do something together, if you want to." At first I was shocked, then confused and then I finally gave a smile. "Sure!" This was the right way how to forget - at least for a moment - about Alucard. And I must admit - it really was fun! I never knew hide & seek can be so interesting in a mansion even if there are only two players. We played many more childish games - really, we were just goofing around - and ended up playing card games in her room which was in the basement. If I'd walk just a little further - few floors lover - I would be face to face with Alucard. It was strange sitting on a coffin playing cards with a vampire - just strange.
"Seras? What kind of person is Alucard?" Her eyes looked at mine which shined with curiosity. "Master? Well… he's nice and all but…. You know…" Yes, it was hard to speak about him, about his character and personality - he was a mystery. In one moment you are sure you know everything about him and in the next you know nothing. What did I know about him? That he's a killer? That he is like a God? That he loves blood? "Is it true?" I whispered to the air. "Is it true that you can't love someone if you don't know him or she?" For a moment Seras stayed silent thinking. "Who knows… In the end, you can realize the person is everything you hate and then love is gone." Is it possible? Yes, sadly, I must agree - she's right. But then why is my heart beating so fast whenever he's near? If it isn't love then what is it? Lucifer, I'm so confused.
I opened my eyes to welcome the darkness. I don't even remember falling asleep and if I did, where am I now? It's too dark even for night. I rise my hand and it touches wood - I am lying in a coffin! For a moment I'm frozen in fear - how in Hell have I ended up here? How long have I already been here? I can smell gunpowder and death - it very much reminds me of someone - of a God. A hand lies upon my hip, my beating growing faster. "Alu…card?" "Correct," comes the answer and I know that now I can calm down. We stayed silent for some time, just enjoying each others company. This is exactly what I needed for my insanity - Alucard. I would swear the vampire's sleeping if he wouldn't be teasing my naked skin, caressing it. How I loved that touch, it's addictive - I swear on the devil's name! No one in this world can save me from this God now. Even if I hated everything about him, I'd love him anyway - I know this now. "The night is going to be born soon." With those words he opens the coffin and I sit up, but he stayed lying there his eyes watching me. "My broken doll…" I shiver at those words - it felt as if death walked through me - and my heart started beating faster then fast, it almost hurt. "Have I crushed you yesterday?" How I wanted to scream then - so much - but I didn't want to admit, couldn't admit that he really crushed me when he denied me that one selfish kiss. But now when I think about it - what did I except? I wanted to kiss a vampire and I wanted to kiss him like a human. It makes me wonder if a human and a vampire can exist together in the name of love. Those hands take a hold of me as Alucard sits up. "My doll… My Omen… " My arms find their way to his upper back where they lie resting, my eyes are shining with tears - I'm so soft, or maybe weak? - and in time I dare to close them, just to let my head fall back. He maybe won't accept my love, but I don't mind being used by him - to be a toy, I just wish he would give me at least an illusion of love - and I don't mind it being a lie… Lust or love - it doesn't matter to me any more, I just wish to be an important part in his life - or unlife - I want him to know I'll stand by his side no matter what. "Alu-!" I can only hold him tight when he breaks my skin. I wonder - is there a drug that won't kill you in the end? But I don't mind, I'll gladly die in his arms - I can't think of a better death. My God's lips let go of my skin but still, I continue bleeding quite badly. Alucard watches the blood few silent minutes and then unties his bowtie. "What are you doing?" My question's ignored, but the vampire licks me clean from any blood and wraps my necks in the red cloth stopping the bleeding. You know, I felt really special - sitting in his lap, in his coffin, in his chamber, just he and me looking at each other, hiding evidence - I don't know what came over me, but I rose up and kissed him, but no - not on the lips - my mouth touched his dead silky skin, right next to the temptation, I was almost touching the corner of his mouth with mine. From now on I shall pray for bites and kisses.
Hellsing and it's characters DO NOT belong to me!
My dreams weren't calm, they were cruel and painful, even morbid I could say. Because of that I woke up every hour until I gave up sleeping that day. And even sober the walls screamed at me, cursed me - Lucifer, I was turning mad. I needed something to calm my wild heart but what? The creature I need, my sweetest drug, turned his back on me - how cruel this world can be… I sat on my bed feeling the walls closing on me. Madness, insanity - I was so close to loosing my mind, I had to get out of this room.
And so I walked and walked - my mind racing - without a pause, until I ran into someone, or did he or she ran into me? I don't know, it was too hard to concentrate on reality and my thoughts at once. "Ups, pardon me." From the ground I stared at Miss Victoria who was by now giving me a hand. "Thank you. Shouldn't you be sleeping?" Miss Victoria - or Seras, I believe she asked me to call her that yesterday - shrugged. "Probably, but I'm not tired." I wish I could say the same about myself, but sadly I was dead tired and I didn't dare to fall asleep by now. "And where are you going? If you're bored we can do something together, if you want to." At first I was shocked, then confused and then I finally gave a smile. "Sure!" This was the right way how to forget - at least for a moment - about Alucard. And I must admit - it really was fun! I never knew hide & seek can be so interesting in a mansion even if there are only two players. We played many more childish games - really, we were just goofing around - and ended up playing card games in her room which was in the basement. If I'd walk just a little further - few floors lover - I would be face to face with Alucard. It was strange sitting on a coffin playing cards with a vampire - just strange.
"Seras? What kind of person is Alucard?" Her eyes looked at mine which shined with curiosity. "Master? Well… he's nice and all but…. You know…" Yes, it was hard to speak about him, about his character and personality - he was a mystery. In one moment you are sure you know everything about him and in the next you know nothing. What did I know about him? That he's a killer? That he is like a God? That he loves blood? "Is it true?" I whispered to the air. "Is it true that you can't love someone if you don't know him or she?" For a moment Seras stayed silent thinking. "Who knows… In the end, you can realize the person is everything you hate and then love is gone." Is it possible? Yes, sadly, I must agree - she's right. But then why is my heart beating so fast whenever he's near? If it isn't love then what is it? Lucifer, I'm so confused.
I opened my eyes to welcome the darkness. I don't even remember falling asleep and if I did, where am I now? It's too dark even for night. I rise my hand and it touches wood - I am lying in a coffin! For a moment I'm frozen in fear - how in Hell have I ended up here? How long have I already been here? I can smell gunpowder and death - it very much reminds me of someone - of a God. A hand lies upon my hip, my beating growing faster. "Alu…card?" "Correct," comes the answer and I know that now I can calm down. We stayed silent for some time, just enjoying each others company. This is exactly what I needed for my insanity - Alucard. I would swear the vampire's sleeping if he wouldn't be teasing my naked skin, caressing it. How I loved that touch, it's addictive - I swear on the devil's name! No one in this world can save me from this God now. Even if I hated everything about him, I'd love him anyway - I know this now. "The night is going to be born soon." With those words he opens the coffin and I sit up, but he stayed lying there his eyes watching me. "My broken doll…" I shiver at those words - it felt as if death walked through me - and my heart started beating faster then fast, it almost hurt. "Have I crushed you yesterday?" How I wanted to scream then - so much - but I didn't want to admit, couldn't admit that he really crushed me when he denied me that one selfish kiss. But now when I think about it - what did I except? I wanted to kiss a vampire and I wanted to kiss him like a human. It makes me wonder if a human and a vampire can exist together in the name of love. Those hands take a hold of me as Alucard sits up. "My doll… My Omen… " My arms find their way to his upper back where they lie resting, my eyes are shining with tears - I'm so soft, or maybe weak? - and in time I dare to close them, just to let my head fall back. He maybe won't accept my love, but I don't mind being used by him - to be a toy, I just wish he would give me at least an illusion of love - and I don't mind it being a lie… Lust or love - it doesn't matter to me any more, I just wish to be an important part in his life - or unlife - I want him to know I'll stand by his side no matter what. "Alu-!" I can only hold him tight when he breaks my skin. I wonder - is there a drug that won't kill you in the end? But I don't mind, I'll gladly die in his arms - I can't think of a better death. My God's lips let go of my skin but still, I continue bleeding quite badly. Alucard watches the blood few silent minutes and then unties his bowtie. "What are you doing?" My question's ignored, but the vampire licks me clean from any blood and wraps my necks in the red cloth stopping the bleeding. You know, I felt really special - sitting in his lap, in his coffin, in his chamber, just he and me looking at each other, hiding evidence - I don't know what came over me, but I rose up and kissed him, but no - not on the lips - my mouth touched his dead silky skin, right next to the temptation, I was almost touching the corner of his mouth with mine. From now on I shall pray for bites and kisses.