so, u didn't check my lj huh Freddy?...lol ( Read more... )

Ok so I am a fucking retard...I write that last post about Freddy and in the past few days I have been talking to someone who had been the only one not to lie to me...but who I had ditched in attempt to keep EVERYTHING inbetween me and Freddy out of the way...and then I have this conversation ( Read more... )

Everytime I start to remember and wish and miss, I revisit all the bad and replay all the hurt and I just need to learn how to move on cause he will never be different. He will continue to be the way he is for the rest of his life because no matter how many times he says he will change, and no matter how much he wants to sometimes...he never works ( Read more... )

Why do I torture myself ( Read more... )

My breasts are still tender from a Dane corset I wore 3 days ago. Makes me sad and owchie and I want to know why cause they have never hurt like this b4. Biyana...get a LJ so I can stop making most of it public so I can friends list u and you can read everything. Makes me wanna cry it all does....yep yep. And I think I might wanna go to the Philly ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATHY ( Read more... )

I have had a crazy few couple days. We left NY yesterday am and drove out to eastbumblefuck PA and then back into Philly and then to the hotel. Somewhere in this whole mess we realize that the driver can't figure out any type of directions at all and that right seems to mean left to him/ north-south and all that so Beth and I are the official ( Read more... )

Yeah, so I am single. Turns out Freddy could never handle me, and this I had said b4, but he insisted for over a year that he could. I am not hard to be with, but he is way too much of a child to be in a relationship with me. And he thinks I need to "grow up and get a life", why cause I bothered to try and be with him? He spent the past year+ ( Read more... )

Ok Reading PA in 2 days. I wanna know what am I gonna do there? Ohhh lordy. Well today is supposed to be 87 degrees so after class I am going for a bike ride with Mizz Kathy (extensioncord on LJ and my roomie) in central park. It is too beautiful a day to spend the entire thing doing homework though I do have to call some companies when I get home ( Read more... )

I wanna know when the funk my Finishing class became a Chemistry one? And this wouldn't mind, if I had taken a chemistry class any time within the past 4 years, but seeing as how I haven't and he has given us no basis in it, I wanna know how he can throw 4 2-8 page atricles at us every week (and I have 3 weeks worth to do) with titles such as " ( Read more... )