Isn't it funny how with some problems, you are alone, no matter who is looking out for you? At the end of the day, you have to live in your skin, you have to face the thing by yourself. Not that support isn't helpful. Things have been going wrong for me for so long that I find myself suspicious of anything that looks like good luck. I am quick to ( Read more... )

UP early today, had exercised before half 8, woo! Having real problems this week with my back in bed, yesterday and today I have had aching stiffness around the back of my ribs so bad that I can hardly move. Dunno whats going on but its really getting to me. What the heck is wrong with me? Am I so badly put together? Why cant anyone help me? Tis ( Read more... )

A post on here has made me think of my book and how I should be trying to get it published. I have a feeling it may need a hefty edit, cant decide whether to do it or not. Cant seem to get into the right headspace. Im assuming it will come at some point. This flat here is not very conducive to concentration! Not doing much today, yesterday i ( Read more... )

I need a camcorder for getting footage of me onstage, where the lighting is usually not great. What features am I looking for in a camera for this? Can anyone recommend a camera that can pick stuff up ok in lower lighting?

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If only I could do it like River!

Im really homesick lately, I want to go up this week but would feel bad about leaving Mark- however he only has afternoons at work and I really need to get some work done, hmmmm. Did a shoot at a vintage cupcakery last night, it was fun but I looked so enormous on the photos. I really hate myself. I think im becoming more of a feminist with all ( Read more... )

Well tired today. Have been successfully getting up early to work this week, huzzah! Finding its a pain to be reading books though, at least when you read articles you get a pile of stuff you can see you have completed. But there only seems to be books about the history of burlesque, two more to read. Its SOOOO interestin though, never know I was ( Read more... )

Dreamt about bleaching my hair last night, random. Travelling back to manchester tonight. Tomorrow Im off to Lboro, ffs. Cant decide whether to get my hair cut, its actually looking alright at this length, maybe I will wait till I have more money. Need to ring the Alexander woman too, I hate ringing pple on their mobiles.Not sure why, seems like I ( Read more... )

Why doesnt Manchester have a Wilkinsons that is central? Wilkos is great, have just raided the Newcastle version. Its nice here, lovely winter sunshine. Edinburgh weather was much the same, stupid Manchester. Had fun at Ed, sleeping on a platform that wobbled, staying up till muchos late talking, eating lovely rose cupcakes (alas left behind!). Had ( Read more... )

All I want is a non-live version of light my fire by the doors. I have it on CD, on hard drive and have also tried to download it but no versions are opening properly on either my lap top or my computer. wtf!