i hurt my back at work lifting freight or batteries or something. and now im on workmans comp to get my back looked at. but the doc said im ok to work if i dont lift,push, or pull over 15 lbs. i cant turn, bend or twist either. so im pretty fucked there. i called walmart today and they said m not getting paid for the days im scheduled to work ( Read more... )

i wish i was at club flirt right now...holy fuck i feel so dance-full. cyndi is next door at cheryls party. and i got drunk..shit i just sneezed on the screen...but yeah. wooooo. im still at shit ass walmart...and sara isnt here..which really sucks..it would be cool just to chat..i WISH CYNDI  WAS HERE RIGHT NOW...oh well.....oh and dani!! i cant ( Read more... )

so i havent been writing much. work will be defined under the lj cut. home life is ok. cyndi is very emotional lately and im trying my hardest to be as strong as i can for her..even if i feel like crumbling too. tommorow is her wedding anniversary. im taking tommorow off from work for a few reasons. i want to spend the day with cyndi, i hate my job ( Read more... )

so friday night i got a ride home from work from the wonderful laura, which i greatly appreciated seeing how she sacrificed her 15 minute break for that. right when i got ready to walk in the shower jenn hendrichs called! she is an old school friend..and with her was the infamous nicholas velesquez. so we went parading about downtown st. pete for a ( Read more... )

im to stoned to write anything right now..but TOMMOROW i will.....promise! :-P

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ive been so full of anger its insane. sasha (therapist) told me to make a list of all the things i get angry at. so yeah..i have two full sheets of paper filled. the last two days in a row ive blown over the top with my anger and kicked stuff or threw it or slammed it. im TRYING to get control..BUT im so full of rage it seems. i dont understand ( Read more... )

me and cyndi both feel like happiness is a very temporary thing lately. usually she is very happy. rob being here is getting us both down and cranky towards eachother. we never get space from eachother. rob owes cyndi money and hes fucking out buying laptops,phones, hardrives and shit. its fucking frustrating. if he can afford all of this shit he ( Read more... )

so today i woke up late and missed group at D.B.T. i at least seen sasha. that went ok. today has been one of my worse days ever with cyndi. we just argued all day long. no matter what it was. i cant touch her right, say the right thing, i felt like she didnt even want me around. i ended up crying twice today because i cant seem to do anything ( Read more... )

man im so tired. i went to flirt last night with tina, cheryl, and my beautiful girlfriend of course. we had alot of fun dancing again. tina ran into a girl she knew and spend most of the time talking to her and cheryl texted back and forth with john all night :-p. but yeah. i cheated the system again. last time i went they THOUGHT i was 21..well ( Read more... )

so my eye...i went to the optomitrist this morning..and i have something( forget what its called )where there is a HOLE in my eye. its kinda like a lil cavity would be in ur tooth..well this is a little hole from my eye not getting enough oxygen. supposedly my contacts are blocking the air from reaching my eye so it cant heal. so yeah. doc wrote me ( Read more... )