Comments | cynicalgrey: This is why I always thought the worst of you.

cynicalgrey

This is why I always thought the worst of you.

Jan 13, 2008 22:25

Today I went biking, listening to Tom's mididisk player (He said I could have it. Yippee...). Flaming Lips' Feeling Yourself Disintegrate with the sun in my sunglassed eyes ( Read more... )

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sweetgingertea January 14 2008, 05:20:18 UTC

Feeling Yourself Disintegrate Lyrics

cynicalgrey January 14 2008, 13:27:57 UTC

Merci! But I meant the song by Benjy Ferree. I should have made it clearer ^_^

vraven January 14 2008, 07:20:06 UTC

Teach a girl to fish! This is how you do it.

cynicalgrey January 14 2008, 13:27:01 UTC

Wrong song, love <3

I meant the one by Benjy Ferree. I have the others memorized <3

vraven January 14 2008, 20:57:35 UTC

Whoops! Of course. Uhm, yeah. Lame, I can't find them either.

cynicalgrey January 15 2008, 16:09:15 UTC

SEE!!

<3 though

psychababble January 14 2008, 07:26:54 UTC

plz2b on your weight-loss filter. GIVE ME HOPE I CAN TOO BECOME BADICAL.

cynicalgrey January 14 2008, 13:27:20 UTC

I shall, I shall <3333

psychicgypsy January 14 2008, 18:25:35 UTC

Your new profile photo kicks ass.

cynicalgrey January 15 2008, 16:12:54 UTC

Thankies! It's from a very happy day that happened long ago. My goal for this year is to reach that point and beat it. I am all for moving on with your life. Seems a relationship can easily keep you from meeting your life's goals. Not all relationships do that, but the one I just exited left me feeling horrid, ugly, stupid, and meant for failure. It wasn't all his fault, but he played into it a lot (especially after tossing me aside once he got his motivation in gear; I was just a tool for success for him and I outlived my usefulness, I suppose).

Anyway, here's to 2008. I <3 your kitty icon, btw. And you look so gorgeous in it ^_^'' I <3 the jawline.

psychicgypsy January 15 2008, 17:02:40 UTC

I think a lot of relationships prevent people from going for their life's goals. Sometimes I think I'm being held back, not by him, but by ME because I'm afraid. I'm afraid of being separated from him (if I ever want to get a temporary job in another city doing what I love)...sigh.

Anyway, go forward! You seem to parallel my best friend. She wants to make herself #1 this year and be happier and healthier too.

Let's just say we're both hotties.

cynicalgrey January 15 2008, 17:15:41 UTC

True. As I said, it wasn't all his fault. I didn't progress with my life because I wanted to wait until we could continue it on together (I believed that he was going to devote the same amount of energy as I had into the relationship; it's disheartening that this little set back allowed him to act on the things he always wanted with others). I willingly chose to put my life on hold for him, a huge mistake. I know if I hadn't done that, I wouldn't be in the pickle I am in now. But it's a nice pickle, and I do like kosher ( ... )

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cynicalgrey January 15 2008, 16:14:16 UTC

It's a long and arduous process. I suggest that you visit the website www.sparkpeople.com You will get loads of motivation and help there. My el jay is the part of me bringing a community of friends in to support and hold me accountable for my path of healthy living.