there is so much shit going on in my life. much of it feels like the world is falling around me... nothing in my life seems at balance.. and all i am doing is trying to do the right thing. why cant it simply work out ( Read more... )

might i inquire on infinite desire ( Read more... )

when i first made this journal i did not wish anyone to know who i was.  the reason for that is because i used to have an lj and those who had gone to my lj page began a great deal of drama, and my whole world got turned upside down by abunch of people who wished to ruin me since i decided to date pati... now that pati and i are no longer together ( Read more... )

"Welcome Note"

Death is an invitation
To a party I long to attend.
Life is filled with pain
From memories left to mend;

A razors edge my doorway,
Freedom to that better place.
Drifting crimson rivers,
Bitter cold to my embrace.

"Rescue me from my own self,"
They all think I should say.
But my liberation lives
In not going on another day ( Read more... )

push me out of the way of what you are trying to do. i will only fuck you up. remove my heart from your hands, the blood wont lift you up. call in a favor from a friend and have me shot. killing me is not a crime. im the memory that will be forgot.

math matecally, i am:

me - mother =1/2
1/2me - s = 0
0me - art = -1,000
-1,000me - my son = -1,000,001,000
-1,000,001,000me - my daughter = -2,000,001,000
-2,000,001,000me - you = whats the point

cut. deeper. deeper than ever. non fatal. keep it red; flowing. subtract the tears, your used to this. 'man up tim, man up.' she never could hit you and cut this deep. deeper still. find bone. reach the soul. it must be in there. be brave. be calm. relax. let it go. fall aslee....

Just shoot me. Fine. No one has a gun. Diving time me thinks.... be safe all

justy when i feel i am moving forward i am slammed back... a friend said ( Read more... )

I have recently built two web pages... one is for freinds, and anyone who wishes to have a link to this journal... anyway... the other is for making money through affiliate programs ( Read more... )