This is for you M. You'll never see it, but I have to say it ( Read more... )

I'm on medication again. Yeah, I know. I promised I'd never go on meds again. But, I'm finding it impossible to do it without some help. I'm not going to be to egotistical this time. It's something I *have* to do. I look at what's going on with my brother and my mother, and I just can't do to myself what they've done to themselves. Yes, medication ( Read more... )

I keep forgetting I had a LiveJournal. I have plenty of excuses, but nothing forgivable that will explain my distance with all my friends here. Most of you I met at MDD and I miss our relationship and I'm sorry ( Read more... )

It's a little after 6 p.m. I've been cleaning since 9 a.m. You wouldn't believe (and I wouldn't try to explain) how dirty this house was. About 3 o'clock I caved in and took my laundry (all of it) to the laundromat for the "wash and fold service". $100 later I am down to a managable 3 loads of laundry to wash ( Read more... )

After this weekend, my vacation is over, and I have to go back to work ( Read more... )

Three names I go by ( Read more... )

The weight of the world pressed down on me ( Read more... )

I can't get enough of writing. It's my saving grace. It's irrational, it's unstable. It's stupidity at it's best. But it's what I have to work with, and so it's what I do ( Read more... )

I forgot I had this, teehee.

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