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Well, that was fun. Now onto how I really feel. I feel like garbage really. Here I was hating Nina, and this whole bloody time she was in love with me and I didn't see it. True, she could have shown it better, but still... Well, I suppose it's all turned out for the best. For me. ... Damn. I'm... Damn.
Ted was surprisingly good about the whole me leaving again thing. I gotta make it up to him this summer, even if my life here starts horribly sucking.
I know I belong here now, and I know I was being dumb before... Sort of. A part of me is already having doubts about some things. I fucked up and it might be too late to fix things. Hell, it may have been already over and I just didn't see it.
So... I've more than likely killed the "maybesortalikeyou" from Ravyn, but from I can see right now, she hasn't at least gotten herself with someone else. I hope. Damn I'm selfish. Can't help it though...
I suppose... I could try to fix that, but it's probably a bridge burned a long time ago now. I probably look like one of those guys that's afraid of commitment now. I want that kind of relationship with her though...
I'm gonna have to try I suppose. Maybe I'm just being paranoid and she still likes me and the OWLs are just stressing her out. Yeah... that's it. I hope.
What else... Oh yeah. Zeon's somehow in the hospital wing, and Umeda and Reira are there too. I'd visit, but apparently Umeda's having a hissy fit. ... Like I'm one to talk. >.>
So I can't visit. And since Zeon supposedly went insane again while I was away, I'd kinda like to talk to him about it. I hope he didn't do anything too crazy this time... Fuck, if he did it's probably all my fault for leaving.
Man, I'm such a fucking screw up. Life was going fine and then that happened.
Argh... No. No no no no no. I'm happy being here. Hopefully, hopefully things'll fix themselves up soon enough. And even if they don't, I know this is where I belong. And if I lost all my old friends, well... I've got Zeon at least. And I can make new ones.
Oh, and I talked to this Yuugi guy earlier. Gonna play some exploding snap with him tomorrow. He seems nice enough.
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Time for study now. I shall pass these exams. And then... something I guess. Better hit the books now.
(mood reads as blah, icon shows as default)
(I gotta make Danny some new icons. Seriously. >.>)
(edit: and now Danny's journal has tags on every entry! 8D)