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... Okay. Let's see here... I don't really have friends here. I told the girl I lov really really like that we should just be friends through a letter since she doesn't want anything more. Still, I don't see even the friends thing going. But she can do what she wants and I'll just... watch from wherever the hell I am at the time.
But back on that other thing. And by friends, I don't mean assholes who I try to be friends with and only be assholes in return or girls that are just fine without me even if I'm not fine without them. >.>'
There's Chopper, Luffy (I think), Yuugi, Kiyomaro (I think) and... Is that really all? I've gotta be forgettin' someone...
... I wonder, if I randomly asked if anyone wanted to hang out... if I randomly said "Don't bother me" one day... Would anyone care? Ask what was wrong?
Why do my instincts tell me that I'd just be left alone?
Cause it's true, isn't it? Well
... Well fuck. Isn't this exactly how I was thinking when I left the second time?
Joy. Knew this'd happen. Knew it knew it knew it.
Not gonna leave again though. Cause then they'll suddenly care (oh wait, they didn't care when I left the second time, did they?) and bring me back and it'll be JUST like this again.
Well I'm not lettin' that happen. I'm not leavin' again. And I'm gonna fix things. Or make some new things. Somehow.
End of story.
/Private
Haven't posted much in a while... Yeah. Blind date went alright. Nice girl, Chloe. Luau was pretty cool, went with Chopper.
... Not postin' much again either. No one to do anything with, nothin' t' post about.
... Okay. Let's see here... I don't really have friends here. I told the girl I lov really really like that we should just be friends through a letter since she doesn't want anything more. Still, I don't see even the friends thing going. But she can do what she wants and I'll just... watch from wherever the hell I am at the time.
But back on that other thing. And by friends, I don't mean assholes who I try to be friends with and only be assholes in return or girls that are just fine without me even if I'm not fine without them. >.>'
There's Chopper, Luffy (I think), Yuugi, Kiyomaro (I think) and... Is that really all? I've gotta be forgettin' someone...
... I wonder, if I randomly asked if anyone wanted to hang out... if I randomly said "Don't bother me" one day... Would anyone care? Ask what was wrong?
Why do my instincts tell me that I'd just be left alone?
Cause it's true, isn't it? Well
... Well fuck. Isn't this exactly how I was thinking when I left the second time?
Joy. Knew this'd happen. Knew it knew it knew it.
Not gonna leave again though. Cause then they'll suddenly care (oh wait, they didn't care when I left the second time, did they?) and bring me back and it'll be JUST like this again.
Well I'm not lettin' that happen. I'm not leavin' again. And I'm gonna fix things. Or make some new things. Somehow.
End of story.
/Private
Haven't posted much in a while... Yeah. Blind date went alright. Nice girl, Chloe. Luau was pretty cool, went with Chopper.
... Not postin' much again either. No one to do anything with, nothin' t' post about.