omg.
no matter what time i sleep
be it 4 am or 11pm,
i could NEVER wake up at 5am
i`m just so incapable of getting up at 5 in the morning
for 2 mornings out of 5.

shitt. i have to stop missing this damn class.
i hate you 8:00 classes!

ugh. i`m going back to sleep.

i thought that was it.
head fake!
one more blow.
i dont even know what to say to this one.
no explanations. no excuses. nothing.
wow. just wow.
and to think, when i saw you after what you did
i took care of you.
attempted to make you feel better and all.
i wouldve never guessed this one
but it wouldnt be this bad
if at least you told me.
if at least i heard it ( Read more... )

I shouldve known.
I just watched myself walk into this mess.
I so knew it.
I saw warning signs all over the place,
yet i kept going.
And then i get stuck.
Stuck. Stuck. Stuck.
Everything you said, blown out the window.
"Technically I can, but I wont. I wont for you."
Ha. bullshit and a fucking half.
"Don't forget me just cause you're at King City & I'm here ( Read more... )

I stop and look at whats around me.
Christmas is in a couple of hours
and I see that I have such wonderful blessings.
Family & friends that are full of love & laughter.
Presents or not, I'm content with what I have.
Living life to the fullest.
Diving into anything new.
Taking risks & chances.
I'll make my last two weeks hella fun.

omg.
how can i be so stupidd
geeeeez
i knew it. i just so knew it.
actually, i didnt.
youre fine in your position
why create waves?

ah. never again.

and this time, i mean it.

i just cant believe it.
wow.
man ohh man,
i'm one retarded chick.

lets just laugh it off & walk away now.

you know what youre getting yourself into.
its not the first time it happened.
you told yourself: "Never again"
still you dont listen.
save yourself some heartache
and just walk away before you both are in deep trouble.

oh i could just picture that bomb dropping.

 work, work, work.

chill, chill, chill.

plus gym time here & there.

then plan, plan, plan.
and plan some more.

oh gadd i cant wait XD

two months left ( Read more... )

I woke up with the usual "SHIT IM LATE"
but this time, it was different.
It became more of a reflex.
School's in.
I'm not. Ha.
It feels good to know that I can sleep til 2 in the afternoon
but on the other hand, it kinda sucks not having anything to do.
It would feel alot nicer too if I actually sleep til 2.
Heck, my sleeping pattern's ruined. Big time.
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procrastination caught me at the worst time.
oh gad i need to start making these damn phone calls.