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daah_ya

Tell me why do I feel this way ...

Jul 24, 2005 23:11

I'm tired of not being able to answer questions.

"Have you ever had depression?" - Uhm, perhaps ...
"What's your sexuality?" - Well, I used to think ...
"Are you male or female?" - Uhm ... actually I am ...
"Why are you going to therapy?" - Er. You know, I started because ( Read more... )

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recyclemyheart July 24 2005, 21:33:09 UTC

I can't answer half of those questions either. I used to think I was a lesbian because I like girls. Though, I like boys as long as when I think about the relationship I am a boy. So that'd make me a gay transexual. Though, I like relationships with other girls quite a bit. But when I think about a boy putting his er in me... ewww. It makes me feel sick. So I can't answer half of those along with the therapy one.

Don't feel to bad. I would love to be anorexic or having self harm issues. Mine I think may be a bit like yours. Its like i'm trapped in a body and I know i'm here, and I know i'm Autumn but I don't know so much about myself. It kind of hurts my head. I don't even know some of the questions that are so easy for others: Do you like girls? Are you a girl? Do you like boys? Are you happy this way? Do you know why you are like this? Do you want to be like this? Do you feel seperated from everyone else? Do you think you are like the countless normal teenage kids ( ... )

daah_ya July 24 2005, 21:53:40 UTC

Wow, that first paragraph sounds like your problem is really very similar to mine. I just never thought of myself as a lesbian, but the rest fits. It's good to know that at least I'm not completely alone with that. I think I might just be a bisexual boy trapped in a girl's body. The problem is that I've never much felt like a boy when I was younger. So I'm confused, as always.

recyclemyheart July 24 2005, 22:07:55 UTC

Hah I thought I was completly alone with that. I often say I am just a lesbian because the only way i'd have a relationship with a boy would be if I was a boy myself.
I have always felt a bit like a boy. It's not that when I was six I asked why I didn't have a penis. I just never liked dresses and made better friends with boys because I never much liked playing house. And when I think about sex with a boy its up the butt the way they do it, and it'd feel good because i'd have a prostate. And a penis. But as a girl with a boy has never really appealed. It'd just be icky.
And i'd love to be a lesbian or a bisexual, even straight as long as it was pretty "normal". As in there were groups for it, or it wasn't so weird.
It bothers the hell out of me that I just can't like girls. It'd be so much more simple.

daah_ya July 24 2005, 22:23:10 UTC

And when I think about sex with a boy its up the butt the way they do it, and it'd feel good because i'd have a prostate. And a penis. But as a girl with a boy has never really appealed. It'd just be icky.Ha, imagine explaining that to a friend. I mean, a real life friend. It just ... doesn't quite work, does it? Of course we all find people with similar issues over the internet, connected through slash and other funny things, or just stumble upon them by accident, but I've never really met a person who understands the stranger points of my personality, for example, at school. Or anywhere else for that matter. As I've said, even the people who go to therapy with me are normal in their own ways ( ... )