and not chopped up in some canadians basement.

I got nuthin to say.

oy vey. Last night I didn't go to sleep until about 4 am. Now I know for many of you that's old hat but I'm old and decrepit and can't do that anymore. At least not unless I have a cup of coffee at 9pm(I can't believe I can't drink coffee late at night anymore, as if I needed any more confirmation on my aging) and start wigging out about what an ( Read more... )

so tomorrow I go back home for to make teh beer. Well, I won't be making it just yet, but I'll start getting my shit together, something I really should have been doing long long ago. Well, it's big talk but perhaps, just perhaps it'll be true this time. Maybe I'll even start working out again...hahahaha...okay, even I think that's funny. Anyway, ( Read more... )

i just realized that every time I post it shows up on Ris's Friends page in full view. hmm, wow, you guys must all think I'm pretty damn creepy. Well, you'd be right, but it's the good kind of creepy...I swear.

Well, i had a fucking great night last night. I think things are gonna be just fine. First time I realized that we're gonna be able to be good friends, and it's not always gonna be weird. Another thing I realized is that some creepy guy is probably reading my journals. Well, if you are, here's a word to the wise. Tell her the truth about adding ( Read more... )

i wanted to mention that the worst thing about all this is I'm such an arrogant asshole. I still believe, which is what I believed for most of our relationship, that I'm the cure for what ails her. I should correct that, I don't believe it, I just believe that I should be and I still try. I wish I could seperate myself from that. Stop bugging her, ( Read more... )

There's nothing worse than loving someone you know you can't be with. It's funny, but every time I talk to her I think I love her a little more. I'm trying to change that love to something more platonic but it's hard. The only saving grace is the real true reason I had to end our relationship is continuously shown to me over and over again. Every ( Read more... )

Well, i'm gonna go home soon so I should probably write my daily journal now. So I'm off to Montreal. Taking a course in the microbiology of brewing. Exciting stuff. Shouldn't be too bad with 2 bachelor parties bookending the class. I'm really kinda wondering when the hell this whole thing is gonna get going. I'm now looking at the beginning of ( Read more... )

This long distance shit really fucks with your head. It's hard to accept that you don't always get to talk to the person when you want to. Even if they're available, they're not obligated to talk to you. Even if they're just talking to other people that you'd rather they didn't talk to anymore, even then they still don't have to talk to you. It's ( Read more... )