Sad yet true...

[dadslilpea]

Today in class we had to list certain words that made us feel certain ways. It was a really dumb excerise but one of the questions was "A word that makes you feel lonely". And I answered honestly...The word friends makes me feel lonely and almost sad. It reminds me of all the friendships that I have failed or that have taken turns full of

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[glory_maru]

I think I understand. I have a similar feeling huddled inside me that I call my "second-place" syndrome. It's because no matter how many friends I have, or how close any of them may be, I am not #1 in any category. I may be able to trust them with the details of my life, but they never reciprocate. I want to hang out, they're too busy. I'm not the first person anyone calls, or emails, when something happens. I'm not the first person they think of when they want to study for a test, or when they want to go see a movie, or just go walk the lake or go semi-shopping with. I wish I was number one in some category, in someone's opinion, but of course it doesn't work out that way just cause I want it to, and that hurts. And it's not one of those things where you can just say "Well, God loves you" because yes, He does, immensely and deeply beyond what any human being could possibly attempt - but there's that lingering knowledge that even though you're special and precious in His eyes...everybody else is too

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[dadslilpea]

do you realize it took me until today to realize what the heck that little man was supposed to look like? ^_^