well.

[daemonfury]

Seems my appointment was moved to tomorrow, or perhaps thats only because most times these days I hardly know what day it is, let alone what day of the month. maybe because I don't think about my situation. So here it is, staring me in the face. I go in at 9:45 in the morning

Comments

[superdave68]

Chin up.

Everything is as it is. Stop being down, bounce up, and fight your disease and life.

Did I do this to myself? Push everyone out I mean.
Yes

Everyone has such a low opinion of me.
A lot of us got pushed out because you think this. Because you think people are attacking you or hating you when they aren't.

Normally I don't give much of a shit what people think, but this is coming from people I thought knew me better.
No one really knows another person.

Oh well. Look forward, never behind. I hope things don't go too bad tomorrow.
Thats the only way to do it. Fight hard, the rest be damned.

You can do it, but only if you try. My thoughts are with you.

[daemonfury]

thanks Dave, but everyone has thier days when they are a little down in the mouth. today has been one of those days. I dunno maybe you never have those anymore, but Im only but so strong.

[derekdarko]

I'm here and I've said that a million times. You take it for what it is. I don't know what else to say Teens. Except I love you and I'm willing to do anything I can to help. But, me saying that never seems like I means anything to you. Because you do push me out. Just like I push you out. Well, whatever happens you have my number. I'll do what I can.

[daemonfury]

"never seems like it means anything to me." Im sick and tired of explaining things to you. I push you out because your always like omfg you never hang out or talk to me, and that I piss you off to no end. have a lot of shit in my life, and I hardly ever have time for myself let alone anyone else. You cant seem to understand that. so whatever. I appreciate the kind words and everything you do, regardless if you think it "means anything to me or not."

[duicarthan]

I'm here and I always will be. I think I'm one of the few you could never push out. Try as you might have long ago.
Either way. I'm here if you need me to come over to chin you up say Wed or something email me or call. My lines always open and I have no problem going to your appointments with you sweetie. I even offered and I stand by that. I'll be there if you need me (yes even driving from mid-Ohio in the middle of winter in a POS car, b/c I care), I'll hold your hand the entire way, never flinch, and do whatever needs to be done. I miss ya. Call me or email ASAP.