I havent written in a long time. Part of me is nervous, knowing who is probably reading it, and then part sad because there have been no replys.....i just think i took advantage of friends always being here when i ventured back.....like VBLPS would never close and i could alway show up there and see familiar faces followed by warm embraces.....but ( Read more... )

So im at that point again, where everything changes. Wasnt i just here a year ago? and then again i feel like i have gone no where ( Read more... )

I am scard to see him. This can't be right!? Well, first of all I have not seen him in three weeks. And well I am doing ok. I kinda feel free, like I have no boy-friend. And I am ok. But I am scred now to see him, get sucked back in love with him and how hard it will be to let go again! It almost makes me feel like I have a cruch or something. ( Read more... )

I don't like myself much right now. Its Saturday and I am at work, if that gives you any clue to how my weekend is going ( Read more... )

Its been awhile. Its hard to write here anymore, honestly I don't write anymore, which is a bad thing I think. I'm keep it all bottled up inside, I don't even have my photography as ventalation anymore! No darkroom to escape into. I am working on a photo project. I shot a few pic's this past week. It felt so good to be behind a camera again. But ( Read more... )

woke this morning not sure that the dream ended and where morning began.....my reality is become more unclear as we speak....my mask is one M-F 9-5, then there is the other mask for the strangers i live with....who after months still seem unknown too me ( Read more... )

hi. i miss writing entries but there is never the time so im forced to used a pen and paper again. its been a month and half since my new venture into new territory and not major complaints. i feel this was my path. not sure what is ahead after my year here is over. cant see that far ahead yet ( Read more... )

in a whole new place ( Read more... )

Ok so here it is im freaking out!! I have to pack. I hate hate packing. And i have to not only pack to move out but pack for a weekend too! I hate this. My self-essem is at a nice low point and im on edge....and my boyfriend seems to be missing. Well he is calling but there is something bothering him and he wont talk to me....the long silent pauses ( Read more... )

I cant focus. I keep trying but i keep falling off track. and my dreams are so odd, and vivid. i woke up today and didnt really have a good sense of time or place ( Read more... )