Ok, first off let me get something straight. For those who are a tad bit confused, and you know who you are ( Read more... )

My mind swims with guilt now as I sit here, contemplating all that has happened. I place the blaim upon myself for everything wrong that has happened ( Read more... )

Derek I know I said I wouldn't say anything, but I need to say this. Jerard came by to see you because I told him he needed to. Because I know you two used to be good friends and not only that but Rose and Aimee asked me to tell him to come see you. It isn't because Olin is in the hospital, or anything else. Because all of us asked him to. He is ( Read more... )

Ok, so yesterday Jerard and I stayed at his step mother's house. They were going to be gone the entire day, so we had the place to ourselves. We watched Nightmare on Elm Street with Johnny Depp (and realized (again) that Johnny had a nice ass). We snuggled together on the couch. The entire time, I layed on his chest listening to his heart beating. ( Read more... )

April 25, 2005 ( Read more... )

Rose ( Read more... )

Ever wondered how people will say things, keep them private, but some how they wind up getting out in the open? Yeah...I found out some things, but that's ok ( Read more... )

unizenski (4/10/2005 3:30:39 AM): that journal makes me all warm and fuzzy inside, i could care less if you ever gave a damn about anything, you dont even exist to me any longer just another mindless irritant filing into existence waiting for your turn to die. hopefully we'll get more use out of your corpse as alive your are utterly worthless as a ( Read more... )

I received a lovely email from Jerard about Derek's post. hmm lovely. I try to be nice to them, and all goes to hell. Just like Derek, huh? For those that aren't aware of wht I am talking about, here you go ( Read more... )

I sit here..listening to sad music...and I realize that I can't take this much more. If I could, I would disappear completely...dig a hole and stay there....to escape this...I don't know if my heart can take this much longer ( Read more... )