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[daisuke_yoshiki]

I'm at a really, really, really weird place in my head right now. How can you feel both proud and determined at the same time you're feeling like a worthless loser and a failure? I'd blame the muses because there's one kinda like the former and one kinda like the latter, but... it started before they got to those respective places. I haven't cried

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[8bitdiscotheque]

Why do you feel like a fuck up? 'cause I've used all your money and become a drain on your private time? heh. You've had a stable job for years, you make decent money, you're never late or a liability to anyone in any capacity. You never drag anyone down and you're always dependable. I dunno anyone else like that among my friends group at all and most of them are older than you. Where is it you want to be?

[mikomi_tears]

Life is a constant series of ups and downs, and just when you make it to that one place, the place you've always dreamed? Something comes along and knocks you around a bit. Life - It's not a destination. I thought I knew where I wanted to be a billion times over. I finally just realized I needed to enjoy what was there as I could. Be proud in the moment, love. Be proud that you have a job, and a roof, and a fat, lazy cat. I know, I probably suck at the pep talks too, but you've gone a lot farther than a lot of people. You've got a good heart, and that counts for something. Actually, that counts for a lot. We all feel like failures from time to time, we all see the tiny things that we need to change, not the brilliant big picture that others looking at you see.

I adore you, and I have for some time, even if I suck at always being around and showing it. Being old does weird things to your sense of time and friendship. Okay, rambling done. DON'T LET ME RAMBLE AT YOU. I'm dangerous. I swear. ♥