i really really am ( Read more... )

 i really miss being happy.
and i really hate some of these new unfixable changes i've made.

...i think at some point i really really was thinking i did, but the fact that I'm still unsure really frightens me.

 so so very upset right now. it's not even funny.
i didn't even WANT to go in the first place. and now you are all abandoning me with THEM. ugh
I'm so SO mad right now.

I can't even enjoy Wall-E now.

...thanks guys, really.

 your lack of responsibility makes me cringe.

scratch that...it makes me cry.

every time i begin to have even the ittybittiest doubt about you,
you completely prove me wrong.
it's fantastic.
and i meant what I said.

 Life always makes loops ( Read more... )

 not so much.
Usually my dreams are full of symbols and crazies.
But not last night.
I'm pretty sure that message was straight up clear.
I'm still not sue how I feel about that yet though.

Just go with the flow right?

 but at least it's a little better than it was five minutes ago.

 life really is just a bunch of spins and turns and obstacles thrown around you, it just depends on how you handle those.
that's what really counts.

 I don't know what it is.
maybe it's the clocks
maybe it's my hair or whatever.
but something is off.
i've wanted to just burst out crying all day.
i don't want to feel anything
unless it's you of course.
but you're not having a good day either.
it must be something in the air.
it must be, since i've wanted to kick you in the face all day.
since i just ( Read more... )