This is it. Saying good bye to this journal once and for all. For those of you that visit here, you can view my new journal at http://www.livejournal.com/users/freshstarts/Read more... )

I have come to the conclusion that I will probably be alone for the rest of my life. Not in a friend's sort of way but in the way of having someone there that I can really depend on at times. Someone that will love me no matter what happens or what I do. I've had several boyfriends in the past 10 years or so but none have really been what I was ( Read more... )

Yeah, I'm still fucking alive for some odd reason or another. Finally, people have stopped pestering me. Maybe because I no longer have my old cell phone. Ha!! Only a few have it now and they're all that will have it for now. I have a very good job and making a bit of money so hopefully next summer I can get a few things done. In November I'll be ( Read more... )

I'm still running around, trying to figure out exactly what I want to do right now with my life or what's left of it as it seems I'm not getting any better and the docs really aren't doing much for me now. So, I've left Kentucky for a while and seriously doubt that I'll go back. Too much thinking going on for me to stay there anymore ( Read more... )

Yeah, I haven't been around much and I have my own personal reasons for it. Nothing to do with what the docs have told me seeing I really haven't been back for a couple weeks now. I get so sick and tired of going there all the time. It's like, hurry up and make an appointment but when you get there, you have to wait forever and a day to actually ( Read more... )

I really hate that my mother knows about the scare now. All she does is bitch and gripe about me going to the doc all the time now. I mean it's like every fucking day she's asking if I went back to the doc and all. I told her that I would go when I got damned good and ready and she needed to back the hell off already. My father hasn't been bad ( Read more... )

Well, I made it to my dentist appointment this morning but it took longer than we thought it would and ran past my doc appointment. So once again, I'm rescheduled for tomorrow morning. One of these days I'll get it all straightened out. Anywhos, back to my dental appointment. I went in there knowing that I would have to have a couple of cavities ( Read more... )

I really hate it when I wake up in the middle of a good sleep and can't get back into it. I seriously think that's the worse thing in the world to happen. I was actually sleeping good for once and all the sudden I wok e up. I laid in bed for about an hour and half before deciding I wasn't goin go to be able to get back to sleep. Seems that's ( Read more... )

I didn't make it to the doc office today for the simple fact she wasn't in and I really don't feel like trying to listen to another physician in her office. It's hard enough for me to talk to her at times, much less deal with another one ( Read more... )

Tomorrow I go back to the doctor. It seems like I'll be making myself at home in doctor offices before too long. This will make my fifth trip to the doc's office in less than two weeks. I'm already tired of it but I know I have a long ways to go before it's all said and done ( Read more... )