Most probably I'll never find out why. My perception, blurred. My judgement, torn between instinctive knowledge and hope, preposterous to reason.

We go round and round in circles, he said.
Yes.
It must stop.


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And so I whirl around and around,
in this breathtaking,
vertignious merry-go-round,
until the reaper
asks me for the last dance.


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The tower is fifty ells down and the same up. There is a man kept in the dungeon under the tower. The king has bound him to his conscience with a chain. After a wonderful life he is counting days, but not waiting ( Read more... )

Didn’t you tell me that pain is part of life? I think that we can only feel happiness and true connection to others in rare, intensive moments and that we are condemned to loneliness for most of the time. I shared such moments with you, an intensity that will never be destroyed, regardless of doors you closed and sealed.

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I expect to make rather a good death. The essence of death is loneliness, and I have had plenty of practice at this.
T. H. White, Diary 1960

Neglect and abandonment, overwhelming, fathomless.
That old feeling, so familiar since earliest childhood, washes away
the fragile sand castles I built and rebuild again and again.


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Last season's fruit is eaten
And the fullfed beast shall kick the empty pail.
For last year's words belong to last year's language
And next year's words await another voice.
T. S. Eliot, Little Gidding


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...on all the travels that await me

2019


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1947 young writer Truman Capote had the opportunity to visit one of his admired idols, the legendary French author Colette:

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I leave that roof, our roof now.
It’s cold and dark.
Treat others better than you treated me.

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