I don't want to feel like I've been wasting your time....
peel the skin off the glass
the blood stains wash away
i still can't remember you
but i do know it's raining
and the black top is bleeding
kill the lights
and sing with the black birds
if i could wear another postcard
and write another letter
you'd all be dead.
all these clouds are grey
i fell asleep with
anesthesia supplements
feathers and voices
this was just the first time.
I really hate that I'm 22. I wish I was younger. I hate that every girl my age is a fucking lush. Fuck you if you drink. Fuck you if you smoke. I want none of it. I'm convinced I'm dying alone for this sole reason. I refuse to date anyone who smokes or drinks. I'm ok with the idea of dying alone now. At least I know I'm not getting cheated on by some drunk. "Have another drink and drive yourself home. I hope there's ice on all the roads and you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt and again when your head goes through the windsheild." I have no compassion for anyone who thinks getting drunk or getting fucked up on a nightly basis is an answer to anything. Sorry, but you deserve dying in a car accident. You deserve your fucking lung cancer. You deserve everything you get. Have a wonderful old age when you're coughin up your fucking lung every day.
Sorry. I'm really pissed off and heart broken right now. I hate this fucking city. I cannot fucking wait to move. I'm too fucking good for this city. Britney and I will be hot somewhere else. I can't wait.
"I've got my hands around your neck and I'm squeezing them tightly. I feel you slipping away and your paleness it haunts me. You're weighing me down when you're here and when you're not around and I fear the sound, and the silence that we've found never really ever seems to be. Never really ever felt the need. Never really ever seems to be convenient for me. It was the greatest mistake and I complain but I failed you. Like a noose around my neck, you're holding me back and I can't breathe. I feel your pain and taste the blood. As furious as I can be, I'll call you bluff, I've had enough. You have my heart, you own my soul. I am infected by you. So hard to let you go... I fucking hate you."