WTF is wrong with me? I am being a total bitch and they don't deserve it. I feel out of touch with myself, friends and family. Why am I so unhappy? I feel like I'm gona explode, I'm on the edge...I'm screaming for help but no one will heed my pleads...is there anyone who can help me and talk to me positively and not make me feel like shit or make ( Read more... )

The hardest thing is not admitting that I was wrong. The hardest thing is not admitting that I deserve it. The hardest thing is seeing how happy they are together, the hardest thing is loving him and loving her and feeling betrayed, the hardest thing is wishing them the best, the hardest thing is knowing that its for all the best. The hardest thing ( Read more... )

It's been a year without you without new years you sayin happy new years to meor callin me to wish me to wish me a happy birthday....n why haven't you called me or at least emailed me? why bc u kno u fucked up u asshole son of a bitch...wheres your sister? cryin for you you piece of shit...how could you...I hope you are kickin yourself for bein a ( Read more... )

First I was...Payton and I tried to kill Lucas for some reason...I blew up the basement. Then I was Brooke and I was freaking out bc I was a bad godmother and put Jamie in danger.

I'm drowning in this filthy sea of a lie. I'm about to explode. Theres moments when I just wana scream and let it out and fucking say "you know what. fuck it. I'm sorry. I lied. I'm not ok. I couldn't fucking do it. So fucking roll your eyes and go ahead and say your I told you so..you knew I wasn't really fully better...well congratufucking ( Read more... )

It is a beautiful lie...until it catches up to me and reality hits me. I just don´t know how else to keep in control.

IT BURNS! OMG I AM BURNT IN LIKE RANDOM PARTS OF MY BODY..I HAVE BOOB BURN AND ONE LEG IS REALLY BURNT AND THE OTHER ONE IS JUST LIKE NOT...THIS IS WEIRD...SO THAT WAS MY FIRST ATTEMPT AT TANING LOTION ( Read more... )

You're up in the sky! I just can't see you! These stupid city lights are blocking your beauty! Grr I hate city lights! we must destroy them. I can only see a couple stars outside my window but at least thats something...I'd go crazy if I could see none...I would run and run and run until I found one.lol. So if I can barely see them does that mean ( Read more... )

I guess this whole time I've been looking for a lover I don't have to love because the one boy I wanted to be with didn't wana even talk to me. And now he is talking to me But I don't even know if theres a chance for a future. I guess well see how it goes. So for now I'm putting my dating life on hold...not just because of him..I've been wanting to ( Read more... )

Every few minutes I take a second and I sigh...because its gettin harder to breathe with all the things I wana say but keep bottled up inside..silly things that a silly girl wonders...its not my mind but my heart that wonders ( Read more... )