Old Habits Sleep Don't Die

[dalumat]

I did something last night which I haven't done in a long while. I got paid for sex. I don't know how I feel about it. Maybe if I write it down, I'd know

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[_j3i]

perhaps it's contagious, but your confusion just got me digging up so many of my own loose ends.

i wish i had a friend like you who would talk about such confusion, such exhiliration. of those numbing habits that do not exactly leave us entirely, but just play a prolonged game of hide and seek with our consciousness. of troubling novel adventures not every regular person knows.

or maybe i just know the confusion part and lack the other exhilirating side of the story. that urge to complete the picture might be what's adding up to the confusion.

funny but the cloning suggestion might just quite work if only it was feasible.

[dalumat]

i'm curious. we could share histories.

[rogerrific]

why do we do the things we do?

even if we already promised ourselves we won't do it again. it doesn't seem to hurt us. "seem" being the operative word. maybe it does or maybe we're just imagining it. maybe it's all those hypocrisy we were brainwashed with when we were younger that we thought we're already done and over with that's nagging at us at the back of our heads. maybe they're right after all. or maybe just maybe it's finally time to grow up. and part of it is turning our backs on our old self.

[dalumat]

it was time to grow up ages ago. i wonder though: how do we know which of the things we do should be allowed to continue, as they are part of who we are, and which should be ended, as they hinder our development?

[glenskie]

hmm. i guess you didn't achieve the purpose why you had to write it down in the first place, did you? now do you know how you feel about it? :P

[dalumat]

you're right. i don't! haha. i'm only slightly more indifferent about the issue now.

one of these days, isusulat kita ng kanta.

[bodiddley]

oh man. here's to you. *hug*

Re: one of these days, isusulat kita ng kanta.

[dalumat]

you sure "peter palmeri" isn't about me? hehe, of course not.

yes hug me dammit. *hug*

Re: one of these days, isusulat kita ng kanta.

[bodiddley]

no, tis about a real wanker, not a recreational wanker like you.

*hug*