I get up every day now and I have some excitement. On a pretty regular basis, I've been going to a seven thirty a.m. meeting close enough to walk to. It's been a nice ritual to develop for me. I've started to develop it because for the past few months I've awakened every morning and my first thoughts have been of how I can best carry the message of ( Read more... )

There have been some recent posts dealing with the idea that some of our Fellowship are "hard drinkers" who haven't had to go to the lengths the "real alcoholic" have had to go to. It's an issue of the message we are carrying as a fellowship, and I agree in many ways with some of the opinions expressed. I'm tempered though by something I heard very ( Read more... )

There's a hole in the night, spilling all over things down here. Morning's coming fast and the fog's falling low. I know what this is, I've been here before. Suffer the truth in its gardens, flowers for us all, it's genocide with a pretty bow and we all know it. I'm blowing through town again trying to find the girl. She's a liar, a cheat, a thief ( Read more... )

I'm realizing how little I know about relationships with the opposite sex right now. Funny, considering I'm realizing this because I'm in one. ( I don't know what I'm doing )

There's a world outside my door. It's so many things to me, contradicitons, paradoxes, so little of it ever really made any sense to me. I've never had a passion for living before, and it's a little strange to me now. All I know is that even though I have a passion for this thing that we do, this message we have to carry, life scares the shit out ( Read more... )

I wonder sometimes if time is a real thing or if it's just something we hold onto to try and give meaning to things. Do memories really need time frames to still be important? I mean do you remember what the exact dates and times were for most of your most important memories? I sure don't ( Read more... )

INTP - "Architect". Greatest precision in thought and language. Can readily discern contradictions and inconsistencies. The world exists primarily to be understood. 3.3% of total population. Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs/MBTI)

Growing up, there was a saying on the street, "You're only as good as what you come up against." Back then, it meant you could only tell how good your hustle was by what competitors you beat along the way, one way or another. There's a lot of truth to that in more than one way.

I think my spirituality can only really be as strong as the hardships ( Read more... )

Things are changing, I think I'm changing, and I think it's a pretty drastic change. I'm having a real shift somehow in the way I've been approaching my spirituality. I'm coming to a point where I really am starting to think spirituality is about (for me anyway) being helpful to the people around me first and helpful to myself second. I don't know ( Read more... )

I'm at home after a good weekend camping on the Rappahannock river with some friends. It really couldn't have been better. Other than a relatively quick spat with my significant other concerning her constant lateness, no drama and really just a relaxing, enjoyable weekend. It was really nice to get away and to really be able to relax and have fun ( Read more... )