Sometimes you just never know what's going to happen or what's going to around the corner. In the last few weeks a relationship has started between myself and another alcohlic in the program. Had this possibility arisen three months ago, I wouldn't have been ready for it. But in the last month or so, some things have changed pretty drastically for ( Read more... )

I've come to the conclusion in the past twelve hours that the answer to so many of the questions that I struggle with are in what I believe to be the truth. There's been a situation in my life recently that has involved a level of and quantity of manipulation that is absolutely astiounding to me in many ways. My first reaction to this was a kind of ( Read more... )

Things in life just seem strange to me. I should say that the things that people do seem strange to me. At this current juncture in time, I am watching a bunch of people do some really strange things, and just not sure where a persons place, a friends place falls in whether or not to approach these things. At the same time, I think I've got some ( Read more... )

I've begun this entry three different times now already, and deleted it three times, just to try again. So, at this point I figure that the best way to go about this is to just go head on with it and lay it out, as best I can.

There's a girl. I know it always starts that way, doesn't it? It starts with a girl, and a boy, and it goes on to some ( Read more... )

The wind howls through the door as she leans on the counter, looking outside, watching the trash fly by. The man coming in, using all of his weight to get the door shut behind him says, “Hey Tara. Looks like the weather man really shit the bed on this one, doesn’t it ( Read more... )

If you either know me in real life, or have read my LJ of late, I would guess you know that I've been having a tough time over the past few months. Well, last night I came to a revelation about myself and my life that may have just changed the entire way that I approach life. It's a bit long and windy, but it was of more importance to me than ( Read more... )

There are times when it seems that all will be right with the world, and then I remember myself. That's the second that it seems all hasn't been, isn't, and will never be right with the world. I wonder how at twenty eight years old, I am so horribly ill equipped for life. My sponsor would jovially say, "because I drank it all away". This is very ( Read more... )

It's been brought to my attention lately that I have not at all been going out into life trying to find or do those things that either I enjoy or that I would like to experience. This makes for a strange state of affairs. I'm realizing that I've been very much just going through life just on a very monotonous path for a long time. Of course it ( Read more... )

Day two. Day two of what? You might be asking yourself this. Just don't get you're knickers in a bind there, Janie, I'll get there, one way or another. Freedom kids, freedom. Not that boring old kind of shit that the damn hippy generation used to wax poetic about, but the real thing. No more locked doors, heavy metal mesh screens, time to eat, ( Read more... )

I've been noticing some things lately that are kind of getting under my skin a little bit, and I thought that there was no place better for me to vent than here. Just so you know before you proceed, this is just me venting. I've had a tough time recently, and if I hear, "You're right where you're supposed to be" or "It's great to be in that kind of ( Read more... )