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Abby sat on Jonne’s bed having a complete giggle fit. She was drunk off belief and Jonne was now taking care of her. There was many drunk Finn’s past out in Jonne’s living room. Jonne was sober enough to be taking care of the little kid well teen.
“Lay down sweetie. Please.” Jonne begged. She giggled a little and shook her head at him. Jonne sighed. “Why not?” He asked. She pointed to her outfit.
“I cant sleep in this!” she stated. Jonne sighed and went into his draw he handed her a pair of PJ pants and a shirt. “HEY these look familiar!” she gasped. Jonne rolled his eyes at her.
“They’re yours.” he stated. She smiled and giggled again. “Do you need help changing?” she nodded and lifted up her arms. Jonne pulled off her shirt and replaced it with a tank top. He unbuttoned her jeans and started pulling them down. She looked at him with a lustful glare.
“Jonne-” he cut her off.
“You have a boyfriend.”
“I know. I would never cheat on Novak. I wanted to say I’m going to puke.” Jonne hurried up and put on her pants then he helped her to the toilet where she puked up the extreme about of liquor she consumed. Jonne pulled her hair in a ponytail as she cried and puked. It always sobered her up some. “Okay, I’m done.” she said softly. Jonne picked her up and tucked her in. She had passed out. He put her on her side and put a bucket next to her. Kissing her forehead and then slipped out of the room.
Abby woke up and the first thing she did was puke. She sighed ad headed to the bathroom after she was done and went the bathroom. She then turned on a freezing shower and sat in the tub with her clothes on. She began sobbing uncontrollably. She hated drinking because the things that hurt and made her drink hit her so hard when she was sober again. She turned off the water and sat there soaked ad crying. It was about 5 in the morning. She got up and got undressed and went to find clothes, She found her clothes in the usual draw and got dressed in-
She always left clothes at peoples house. She knew that she would need them at another time. She grabbed a pad of paper and wrote them a quick not well tried as best a s she could to write with he left hand. She stole a pack of Jussi’s smokes and took an aspirin and had a cup of coffee before leaving. She wandered the Helsinki streets not really knowing where to go. She wanted to call Ville but she didn’t her hand hurt and that was her first priority. Her phone rang and she saw it was April.
“Hello.” she said softly.
“Hey darling, where are you?” she asked.
“Finland.” she replied.
“I know that, sweetie. I’m at the hotel with your medicine.” April told her.
“Oh can you meet me somewhere?” Abby asked. April agreed and Abby gave her directions to a café right near where she was. Abby of course got there first she ordered a cup of coffee and sat chain smoking waiting for Ape. April showed up and handed her the whole bottles of pills. Abby took two and thanked her.
“How are you doing?” April asked in a concerned voice. Abby shrugged.
“I’m fine.” she lied. April looked in her eyes and knew she was lying but didn’t push the matter.
“Do you know where bam is?” April asked. Abby shook her head signaling no. April yawned and Abby realized she mustn’t have slept.
“April you should go back to the hotel and sleep.” Abby told her.
“Will you be okay?” she asked. Abby nodded.
“Of course.” April gave her a hug and then left to go back to the hotel. Abby paid and looked at the time. It was 7 o’clock. She knew Anita and Kari would be awake. She started heading towards the shop. It took her about a half an hour to reach her destination. She knocked on the door. Anita answered and wrapped her in a hug.
“Abigail, how are you? How’s America? Are you okay? Why are you in Finland? Are you hungry? No matter you’ll eat any way. C’mon.” she got ushered up the stairs and saw Kari and Jesse.
“Abby!” Kari and Jesse hugged her.
“hey.” she sat down at the table.
“What brings you here?” Kari asked with a smile. Abby looked down in fear of crying.
“My momma.” she said. The mood fell in a second everyone knew right away what she meant.
“Oh sweetheart.” Anita wrapped her in a hug. Abby wiped a few tears away she felt as if she couldn’t cry anymore.
“It’s okay. I knew it was coming.” she said.
“It’s okay to cry, child. Don’t be afraid to.” Anti whispered pulling away and kissing her forehead. Abby sat down and started fidgeting Kari handed her something. She smiled and took the smoke gratefully. She looked up and saw it was only them in the room now.
“You fidget like Ville, when you need nicotine.” he commented with a laugh. She smiled and shrugged.
“I guess I must have picked it up from him.” she stated leaning back in the chair. Kari laughed.
“You’re handling this well. When Ville lost his dog he cried for days at a time.” Kari told her. Abby shrugged and took a long drag. “You spent last night getting drunk.” Kari stated. She nodded. “Yes you’re far to much like Ville.” he laughed again. Abby smiled a little.
“I am far to much like him. Do you know where he is?” she asked. Kari shrugged.
“Why don’t you call him honey?” he asked. She nodded. “Are you leaving?” he asked she nodded and hugged him.
“Bye Kari thanks. Tell Anita and Jesse I said bye.” he nodded and waved. Abby walked back outside and called Ville.
“Hello?” he answered.
“Hey.”
“Abby, are you okay? I have your crazy father here been freaking out all night.” Ville chuckled.
“Yes I’m fine. I’m just aimlessly walking around.”
“Okay well we’re all at Hotel Kamp.” Ville informed her.
“Why aren’t you at your apartment?” she asked lighting another smoke. Jussi’s pack only had a few left.
“Oh I was with bam showing him pictures and now I’m back with the guys. Call Novak he’s going insane.” Ville ordered her.
“Will do.” she told him.
“And call Bam. He’s going more crazy ever since I told him you might be with Andy McCoy.” Ville chuckled.
“I was with Andy, last night and the rest of my boys. Jukka and Jarno are meeting me at noon for lunch.” she told him.
“It’s 11:56 now.” Ville stated.
“FUCK! Ville I’ll call you back later.” she said. He chuckled.
“Okay, bye sweetie.” Abby ran a little ways until she came to the restaurant. She ran inside and saw them at the table.
“how did you manage to be exactly on time?” Jukka asked hugging her.
“If I told you I’d have to kill you…Ville told me what time it was and I ran.” she stated they laughed and she sat down.
“So how’s everything?” Jarno asked.
“Sucky. My momma yeah.” She trailed off not being able to finish. The guys looked stunned.
“Aw sweetie. I’m so sorry.” Jukka said squeezing her left hand.
“No I came to terms with it.” she said smiling softly. They had a nice lunch and the guys had to leave. Abby called Novak as soon as she was done. She was about five minutes from the hotel.
“Hello.” Novak answered.
“Hey baby.” she said.
“Abby, babe, are you okay?” she could tell he was excited to hear from her.
“Yeah, I’m good. What room are you in?” she asked.
“667” he replied.
“OK.” she hung up and knocked on the door. Novak swung it open and picked her up kissing her.
“Babe, I was so worried about you.” he said kissing her. She held on to him so he couldn’t put her down. The guys left to give them privacy. “are you okay?” Novak asked laying on the bed with her. She nodded.
“Hold me.” she sobbed. Novak’s arms tightened around her.
“Shh sweetie it’s okay.” Novak said stroking her hair.
“I want my Momma!” Abby cried. Novak held her tighter.
“Sh baby it’s okay.” Novak told her.
“No it isn’t! My Momma is dead. Don’t tell me it’s okay when it isn’t!” she sobbed. Novak tried comforting her but she pushed him away suddenly annoyed by him. He got up and called Bam.
“Hello.” Bam said.
“Life partner, can you come to my hotel room. I think your kid needs you.” Novak whispered.
“Abby’s there.” bam said excited.
“Yeah Bam…she just snapped though.” Novak told him.
“WHAT?” bam yelled. “We’ll be right there.” he hung up and Novak sighed. He looked at Abby who was holding onto a pillow and sobbing. He sat back down on the bed and touched her gently.
“Are you okay darling? So you want me to get you anything?” Novak asked sweetly. She wiped a few tears away.
“I need some alcohol.” she told him.
“Bam’s on his way so I can’t give you any.” Novak told her. She pulled out the last smoke of Jussi’s pack and lit it.
“I don’t care if he’s coming. I need to drink.” Novak shook his head. “Fine, I’ll call up some friends.” she pulled out a phone and dialed a few numbers. After a short conversation, Novak didn’t understand any of, she hung up. Bam burst into the room before Novak could question her.
“Are you okay?” he asked rushing over to Abby and putting her in a bone crushing hug. She nodded
“I’m fine.” she muttered. She saw Ville slip into the room. He shot her a smile and waved. She smiled at him a little.
”Are you sure?” bam asked looking her up and down. She nodded.
“I’m fine.” Ville’s phone rang causing everyone to look up.
“Hei Jonne.” Ville answered walking away. “WHAT? OKAY JONNE WAIT DON’T!” They heard Ville curse and come walking back. He shook his head at Abby.
“What a hotel party will be perfect.” she state knowing Ville was mad. Ville opened his mouth to say something but Abby cut him off, “You know a nice bottle of jager has your name on it.” Ville sighed.
“WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?” Bam yelled. Abby flinched at the yelling. Bam didn’t notice.
“Bam, can I talk to Abby alone?” Ville asked. Bam looked at him confused but nodded. Him and Novak let the room leaving Abby and Ville alone. He sat on the bed next to her and shook his head a bit.
“You know drinking wont change anything.” he told her she shrugged a bit and leaned against the headboard lighting a smoke. “Abby talk to me.” he commanded. She stayed silent. Ville’s eyes changed to sorrow. “ We use to talk all the time. Do you not like me anymore?” he asked. Abby shook her head rapidly.
“No Ville. I love you of course. It’s really hard for me right now. I cried so much all ready I don’t want to cry a anymore. And drinking ya know it’s my way to get away from it all. Just not remember my momma just died and everything.” Abby said softly wiping a tear away at the thought of her late mother. Ville hugged her and brought her in his arms.
“Cry sweetheart. Don’t bottle it up with alcohol, Don’t fake smiles, just cry.” Abby let out a sob. “No one is here to judge you.” Ville told her. Abby started crying harder. Ville pulled his cell out and text Jonne telling him the party was off but it was to late. Someone knocked on the door. Abby cried and looked up at Ville with big tears streaked emerald eyes. Ville wiped away a tear that was making it’s way down her cheek.
“It’s Jonne and the guys.” she sobbed. Ville nodded.
“Want me to let them in?” he asked she nodded getting under the covers. Ville kissed her forehead and opened the door. Jonne was staring at the phone and mumbling something. He looked up when it opened.
“Is she okay?” Jonne asked. Ville shook his head and Jonne sighed. “Should we go?” he asked.
“She wants you all here.” Ville said motioning to the Finn’s Jonne had brought along. They walked in and saw Abby on the bed. Jonne instantly laid next to her and wrapped his arms around her.
“There, there sugar.” Jonne held her close. “It’s okay to cry baby. Let it all out.” Jonne told her. The guys all looked at each other and handed out alcohol. It was there way of helping. “Do you want to talk, sugar?” Jonne asked. Abby nodded and sat up wiping away the tears that were falling. She looked at everyone who was standing around the room looking unsure of what to do.
“Hey Jussi.” Abby said in a soft voice. He sat next to her and handed her a smoke. “Thanks.” she said with a small smile.
“Do you need some pot?” Andy asked. Abby thought and nodded. Ville sighed. Bam was going to kill him.
“Abby, are you sure?” Ville whined. Abby nodded.
“I don’t give a fuck what Bam says.” she muttered.
“Maybe we should go to my house.” Jonne said. Abby nodded and Jussi picked her up.
“Willa, are you coming?” she asked. Ville sighed. He didn’t know what to do.
“Sure.” he sighed. The Finnish people left the room and Ville didn’t know if he regretted his choice or not. He soon would find out.