I snorted coke for the last time today

[damnations]

I complained about how the germans don't quite float my boat anymore. I explained about my Christmas job and my pre-op..only hoping I won't be bed ridden for too long. I explained how I still think of Camille Rose Garcia and Salvador Dali and Gala even when you were'nt around. I explained I still see the smile in the dark and that the ducks don't

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[_vendetta_]

Ah, this entry was almost painful for me to read. Only because of the memories it brings up. So many times that was me... so many times nobody listened.

I always say I'm never going to do it anymore, but then a month later I'm at some function I feel I absolutely need it at because I'd have so much more fun if I did. I end up doing it and regretting it later.

I hope it really is your last time if you want it to be. I hope my last time comes soon too. Coke is such a vacant drug. Everyone thinks they're having such deep, profound discussions, that they're really connecting with the people around them, only to realize later that they rambled on and on about stuff that anyone who isn't on drugs would completely shut out.

Just my two cents. If anything, I just wrote this comment as a reminder to myself.

Hey

[damnations]

You are far too pretty of a girl to be in to coke....let it be your last time...the cokeheads I know are a waste of rotting flesh and perfectly good brain cells...Listen to the smiths and ignore the white snow.....=)
And yes I find it funny to watch the people high on drugs when they think they are having profound deep artistic conversations when they are on coke and lsd..it makes me sick to my stomach..the one drug I can't get rid of is M.J if I wasn't allergic to that damn blessed herb I would do it every day..I miss it..it helped me write music...=(

Hmm ok?

[damnations]

You didn't do ANYTHING to me. And this is a low blow dramafest on livejournal and I really don't want a part of it...I deleted you because you wrote a rude email to me last time (even my mother and friends thought it sounded rude) and I just assumed you didn't really have much else to say to me..It sounded quite clear, I could care less if you are bored in riverside or la now though I did honestly try to make sure you had a good time because I cared genuinely..You have made it a point to tell me that "You are an adult and NOT my responsibility" Sorry you got offended but realistically I can't be the type of person you wanted me to be into all your rock starish goth parties, That's just not me..::"Shrug":: I'm not gonna argue with you..if you want me to add you back and you CARE then I will..it just seemed you really didn't care if you were on here or not...So why does it bother you? I don't get it...and I dont use Myspace..so that's not an issue =) no hard feelings. Take care girl, have fun in america the rest of your time.

Re: Hmm ok?

[damnations]

I dont spend all my time reading into you..I'm sorry..I have school, auditions, band practice, work and a social life.. I didn't sit on it for days I read it once..asked if it sounded rude..and then deleted you. I do suppose though if I kept you removed nobody else would understand the butt fart claps..or Spanish farters?? What do you think?
=)