Upon some reflection and prayer, I think I understand this wall that I keep hitting on.
Behold the unfinished wall.
The more I run from it, the more unfinished it is. Until. I get a diagonal half ass done wall that follows me in my every step. Yep, I'm pooping concrete that magically turns into half ass done walls.
Sure, I can go back to the very start of this undoneness. The dusty cracks that I left behind. But that would entail me running back to the farthest end of my journey. And it's just better to finish the wall that I'm still doing now. The one that's in front of me.
What's amazing about my wall is that I can only get pass this when I get it done. Because the door is the last thing that will be installed. Because what kind of a door stands by its own without a foundation? The foundation of a wall.
So hello wall. I'm here for you. I'll make you the best wall there is. I know I'll have this tugging feeling that there are better places to build another wall. But I'm comfy with this one.
Maybe after I finish it, I'll add some more sides, and turn it into a house. My house.