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i never claimed a position on not being hysterically vain
just joking!! i am just very proud to say that i've gotten off my ass this month to lose some studio weight and get some more botox injections or eyebrow lifts.
also?
can someone teach me how to dress?
so uh, i uploaded some new icons in lieu of the fact that i no longer look like a fat homicidal grizzly bear, and now that i have a small career again i actually have pictures to use. let it be known that i am not at the position to buy myself a paid account because marla did that for me in july and i left a week later, plus danestrin deleted with paid time, so i am wasting no more money since i care about this thing in spurts. about a month after our album is released i guarantee you i'll disappear again, especially since i am too old to hit on fresh pussy and not as strapping as i used to be.
i should probably stop updating with pictures and get to the real substance in my life. so, there's this album. i've never been so immersed in a project all of my life. i was constantly stressed and very fucking angry at everyone after the writing was done and my visions were not being carried out according to the way they had been envisioned. i'm a control freak. i recorded all of the instrumentation before i allowed anyone in to sharpen the sound. we pushed release dates back. we scrapped a good deal of the album. we all sat down and actually listened to demos from before our self-titled was released--not many people know that our first island/def jam release was scrapped almost entirely because of the perfection that we grew obsessed with. there was a dream-like quality to the guitar that i found i missed a lot more than the distortion i put in the reason, but we liked the dynamics of the reason enough to combine both styles for this record. those who liked our earlier material will appreciate the music and many of the reason fans will appreciate the fact that we didn't totally go metallica and try to pull out a st. anger....
and that is a whole other story in itself.
also, one of my favorite holidays is coming up SORRY ANNIE. it goes either way--people in love love the holiday and singles usually discredit it, and really i think that this is the first year i've been single for valentines day since i was in my early 20s. i don't love it for buying gifts, but man red is a cool color. okay, let me get to it. when you are a guitarist in a band, your mailbox is full of softcore porn from your hottest fans (or at least good angles of them) and your groupies become your valentines. guys, shopping for v-day is not hard, even for not creatively-inclined people. hell, you could walk up to a CVS employee and get good advice, unless you wait until TUESDAY to try to pick up a dozen roses.
anyway, i love getting new teddy bears and pillows and shit. i don't need to read too much into the holiday because if i did that i'm sure i'd be listing would have could have should haves or what have you. that really ain't me--i like to keep my life as little self-depricating as possible. otherwise, when some huge disaster comes along, i'll probably lose myself to negativity instead of actually handling it. of course, this is also why I am not very good at being serious at all, for any reason, which...... IS TOTALLY NOT A PROB FOR ME D00DZ
just joking!! i am just very proud to say that i've gotten off my ass this month to lose some studio weight and get some more botox injections or eyebrow lifts.
also?
can someone teach me how to dress?
so uh, i uploaded some new icons in lieu of the fact that i no longer look like a fat homicidal grizzly bear, and now that i have a small career again i actually have pictures to use. let it be known that i am not at the position to buy myself a paid account because marla did that for me in july and i left a week later, plus danestrin deleted with paid time, so i am wasting no more money since i care about this thing in spurts. about a month after our album is released i guarantee you i'll disappear again, especially since i am too old to hit on fresh pussy and not as strapping as i used to be.
i should probably stop updating with pictures and get to the real substance in my life. so, there's this album. i've never been so immersed in a project all of my life. i was constantly stressed and very fucking angry at everyone after the writing was done and my visions were not being carried out according to the way they had been envisioned. i'm a control freak. i recorded all of the instrumentation before i allowed anyone in to sharpen the sound. we pushed release dates back. we scrapped a good deal of the album. we all sat down and actually listened to demos from before our self-titled was released--not many people know that our first island/def jam release was scrapped almost entirely because of the perfection that we grew obsessed with. there was a dream-like quality to the guitar that i found i missed a lot more than the distortion i put in the reason, but we liked the dynamics of the reason enough to combine both styles for this record. those who liked our earlier material will appreciate the music and many of the reason fans will appreciate the fact that we didn't totally go metallica and try to pull out a st. anger....
and that is a whole other story in itself.
also, one of my favorite holidays is coming up SORRY ANNIE. it goes either way--people in love love the holiday and singles usually discredit it, and really i think that this is the first year i've been single for valentines day since i was in my early 20s. i don't love it for buying gifts, but man red is a cool color. okay, let me get to it. when you are a guitarist in a band, your mailbox is full of softcore porn from your hottest fans (or at least good angles of them) and your groupies become your valentines. guys, shopping for v-day is not hard, even for not creatively-inclined people. hell, you could walk up to a CVS employee and get good advice, unless you wait until TUESDAY to try to pick up a dozen roses.
anyway, i love getting new teddy bears and pillows and shit. i don't need to read too much into the holiday because if i did that i'm sure i'd be listing would have could have should haves or what have you. that really ain't me--i like to keep my life as little self-depricating as possible. otherwise, when some huge disaster comes along, i'll probably lose myself to negativity instead of actually handling it. of course, this is also why I am not very good at being serious at all, for any reason, which...... IS TOTALLY NOT A PROB FOR ME D00DZ