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[I know this is kind of the season for dying off and leaving. It's just that time of year. I've been fighting with myself about doing this for the past week or so, and seeing a new Paul has really solidified it in my mind. I hope the new Paul finds a good, comfortable home here, but I haven't been playing Dan. Worse yet, I know that I haven't been playing him for a long time. Entries take too much effort, and then I don't feel like it was worth it in the end. I know I used to write better, and my interest has waned. A lot of that is due to Rose fading off into the distance because they were together since just barely a month into my role here. Their romance was a big part of what I wrote and what his personality was, and with that stripped bare, I just don't know how to rebuild because I wouldn't want to erase that.
I've been telling myself to hold on to see if my interest comes back, but honestly, I've been waiting for months with no spark. I've reached the point where keeping him makes me feel more guilt than giving him up. I sincerely appreciate the paid account, and I'm only sorry that I cannot motivate myself or my muses appropriately. I had an amazing run with Dan and still have tremendous respect and appreciation for what he does. Sometimes storylines reach dead ends with no easy way out.
I would like to pick the next Dan. If you would like to give it a go or know someone who might be interested, I can still be contacted at notevendan@yahoo.com. I won't be handing over this journal because I have so many memories attached, things I may want to look back on, and so on. Hell, who knows. So many people come back within six weeks that I won't write off the possibility because even the people most determined to leave sometimes boomerang right back here. If that's the case, hey, I'll still have this to fall back on. Dan is a mature, sophisticated, educated, funny, sweet guy, and I'll state right up front that I have high standards for him. Don't ask me for this role if you're just going to fuck around and want to get "in" with Interpol or whatever.
I'd like to thank all of the people that have made this experience pleasant, but I would obviously forget someone. Here's a list of people that have affected me greatly, in no real order and obviously with gaps: Interpol past and present, my Rose, the late great Kate, John Rzeznik, Diane, Justine, Diego, Georgina wherever you may be, Jon, Martha, Eva...I know there's more, but it's just not coming to me right now. I'm still around these MBP waters, as many are, so if you'd like to know where else you can find me, you can shoot me an email at the address above or leave a comment or something. Or OOC, there's always that, ha, though if that's the case, please do email. This is a difficult thing to write when I've spent the last year and a half writing this role, but I really do think this is for the best. Thank you, everyone, and since I don't have a good last line, I'll just steal one from a very witty author. So long, and thanks for all the fish.]
I've been telling myself to hold on to see if my interest comes back, but honestly, I've been waiting for months with no spark. I've reached the point where keeping him makes me feel more guilt than giving him up. I sincerely appreciate the paid account, and I'm only sorry that I cannot motivate myself or my muses appropriately. I had an amazing run with Dan and still have tremendous respect and appreciation for what he does. Sometimes storylines reach dead ends with no easy way out.
I would like to pick the next Dan. If you would like to give it a go or know someone who might be interested, I can still be contacted at notevendan@yahoo.com. I won't be handing over this journal because I have so many memories attached, things I may want to look back on, and so on. Hell, who knows. So many people come back within six weeks that I won't write off the possibility because even the people most determined to leave sometimes boomerang right back here. If that's the case, hey, I'll still have this to fall back on. Dan is a mature, sophisticated, educated, funny, sweet guy, and I'll state right up front that I have high standards for him. Don't ask me for this role if you're just going to fuck around and want to get "in" with Interpol or whatever.
I'd like to thank all of the people that have made this experience pleasant, but I would obviously forget someone. Here's a list of people that have affected me greatly, in no real order and obviously with gaps: Interpol past and present, my Rose, the late great Kate, John Rzeznik, Diane, Justine, Diego, Georgina wherever you may be, Jon, Martha, Eva...I know there's more, but it's just not coming to me right now. I'm still around these MBP waters, as many are, so if you'd like to know where else you can find me, you can shoot me an email at the address above or leave a comment or something. Or OOC, there's always that, ha, though if that's the case, please do email. This is a difficult thing to write when I've spent the last year and a half writing this role, but I really do think this is for the best. Thank you, everyone, and since I don't have a good last line, I'll just steal one from a very witty author. So long, and thanks for all the fish.]