PJ and I keep fighting. He said it's how he knows we're not ready to be together yet. We've always been like that- which tells me that we may never be ready. He was so mean to me last night. He wants me to be stronger so bad that he says things that hurt me and I'm nto sure he realizes it. I mean, yeah I did my fair share of hurting last night ( Read more... )

Had a great day ( Read more... )

You Are 30 Years Old

30

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe ( Read more... )

If I could learn to shut up, a lot of my problems would be solved ( Read more... )

Still not myself. But not being myself is helping me see a LOT of things differently than I had before ( Read more... )

I feel completely alone. Like no one's there. I feel pathetic for feeling this, but it's what I feel. I shouldn't have said what I said because it caused a bad reaction and me to get hit. I shouldn't have done what I did to PJ (wanted to be around too much) because I hurt him, and in turn lost someone very important to me along with a ( Read more... )

After tonight I've fucking had it. I feel like my world is slowly closing in on me and I can't breathe. Too much has happened in the last week and I don't know what to do anymore ( Read more... )

That describes me perfecly. But I don't feel alive. I work out with PJ in the mornings. Which means I see him. He probably doesn't see me in the same way I see him. When I look at him I see someone I love so much, someone I probably should learn to not love like that due to recent events, someone I want to give the world to, someone I was told ( Read more... )

Broken in two. Severed all ties, against my will, but I did. Just want to be held. Just wanting to feel loved, just wanting back what was once normal. This was a heart shattering moment. One that will probably always hurt ( Read more... )

So that's it ( Read more... )