Candy for Breakfast
My normal food lately:
Breakfast: Banana oatmeal muffins (homemade) and coffee
Lunch: Chicken noodle soup (homemade)
Dinner: Spaghetti (sorta - noodles and tomato paste)
So that's what I'm usually eating.
Today?
Breakfast: Brown Sugar Cinnamon Pop Tarts
Lunch: Snickers
I may be hormonal.
Which may be another reason I'm so obsessed with figuring out my orientation.
There's the physical reactions beyond my conscious control - and I have those (now that I'm aware of them) about 70% for women, about 30% for men. Ok! Some solid evidence I can't waffle! That means I'm bi, right?
I could go with that. I have thought many times over the years that I must be bisexual.
I was going to post some more drivel, but I think that's really my answer.
Sexual orientation: Bi - 70% towards feminine energy, 30% towards masculine energy
Romantic orientation: Bi - 70% towards masculinity, 30% towards femininity.
Only, since my vagina doesn't work, and my ability to trust another human being in a romantic or sexual situation is non-existent- that adds two pressures.
Due to the pain, straight or even bi men are not an option.
Due to the inherent flinch of insecurity and trust issues, gay or bi women - while still an option - have an absurdly high bar to clear.
That leaves two categories - Gay men and straight women. And that's where almost all of my relationships have been.
Feels like that's the truth of the matter. Until the next time I gaze at this particular piece of navel lint.