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this just goes to show how my brain,my heart,and my body are on completely different pages.i see a future of manymany internal (petty) arguments;

body says, "YES.dear god,yes."
heart says, "well,maybe..."
brain says, "absolutely not,you dumb broad."

and so on...and on...and on, and well,you get the idea.

i'm not one for second chances,but i think this is a good idea.

i don't think i could have tried to deny it any longer; i'm in love.

soon,i am going to implode from all the things that are corked up inside.if you see a bloody mess somewhere on the street that somehow resembles me...do try and put me back together.

see,the thing is...it's not that i'm fighting what i want.or really fighting against what i don't.and honestly,i have no drive,no desire to do any of the sort.my head is a cloud and my brain is having a great time floating in it.decisions are the airplanes that fly right through my perfect,fluffy cloudhead and,well,you can imagine what happens to ( Read more... )

you make my goddamn stomach hurt.

oh and,by the way,you have great timing.has anyone ever told you that?

...on second thought,i'm sure they have.

so..this morning,after many hits of the snooze button,i get to work at 6am.spend about five minutes there before being told that i'm being sent home because my boss,who specifically called me yesterday to tell me i was working,scheduled too many people.i truck it back up the fat hill,and all the way down..lay down in bed,and not wake up until oh... ( Read more... )

( even though the ship sinks you know you can't let go )

in the last thirty-six hours, i have slept twenty-seven.

sick,maybe?

make my organs blister and boil.
suck out my soul through any available hole.
read my thoughts,invade my dreams.
tell me to run away,your hands are saying stay.
my dark lust,my forbidden follie..
eat away at me until there's nothing.

nothing.