Im down to the last straw

[dancer_xo_05]

I just dont know what to do anymore. I dont feel like you care at all about this friendship or what we had. Ive made a few attempts but I dont feel like youve made one. I dont even know what happened, dont I have a right to know why youre so angry with me? Well this is my last attempt because I just dont know how much more I can keep pouring out

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[anonymous]

amy, i was really pissed when you never called me when my grandfather died. yes you called me both when your grandmother died and your father but i mean knowing he was sick, i thought you might call me to check how he was doing or ask someone at school because obviously everyone knew. With your dad i was a whole county away, while my grandfather was one of the biggest names in caswell, i figured you would find out. I didnt call you because amy you know me! i dont depend on anyone and if i called you that would have been my way of showing my self that im weak. You know how i am and i hate to say it but being my best friend, you should have seen that! even now, after my great grandmother died on christmas eve, i havent sheed a tear, because thats how i am and i thought you would know that. I am proud. when you called me from arizona i was trying to be as not rude as possible because i was accually in shock that you called me and pretended nothing had happened. you went on telling me about all that had ever happened with dustin

[dancer_xo_05]

Well Im not asking you to take all of the blame Iam simply hoping that we both could take responsibility in letting our friendship fail. I do take the blame for not acting like I cared because I did "not act like I cared" but I cared more than you can imagine, I wanted to be there for you and I wanted to be the friend that you had been to me when my grandmother died and when my dad died, I wanted to return the favor. I know you "didnt ask me to drive five minutes from BY to his house to say hello" but I would have...If i had known, when I found out 2 wks later it didnt allow for me to do that. I wish that I hadnt of been so stubborn and I wish that I would have reached out to you regardless of how hurt I had been. Like I said in the livejournal before your response Friendship isnt about putting all the blame on someone else, when friendship as strong as ours faulters its both of us, not one or the other. I realize that and I take all the fault for my part. Iam deeply sorry for not giving you the support that you deserved and needed. I

[adaisy05]

Amy, you have no idea how much grief bradley has put me through since our relationship hit the rocks.
I still think we should talk, i think we need to have a blow out all nighter with tissues and crying and pizza bits and ice cream and what nots.
There are still things i wish to tell you, things i was never strong enough to, or things you have missed, or just whatever but i think we need to plan this IMMEDIATELY!
I, too, am sorry that i never gave you a chance (this changes nothing i said earlier!) and im sorry that we've missed christmas together but we will fix this and everything will be alright
i do love you girl!
nana

[sacredfuture]

aww, you ladies are so sweet. i love you guys. okay now im back to minding my own business...*whistles*

-boo boo