Fresh starts only happen when old situations are finally put to rest. It may be difficult to let this come to a conclusion, but it's necessary if you want to move on with your life. Breathe. Learn to accept reality.
heavens still not a place that you go when you die, its that moment in life when you actually feel alive.
It's important to pay attention to your feelings, but make sure you're not rushing into a situation that could be easily sidestepped. Let your emotions cool down, and then go talk to the parties involved.