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[dancinbutterfly]

So I told Paul I was in love with him. He said "Thank you." then freaked out and hung up. What the actual fuck? Then he sent me this email? What?

I'm sorry that hit me like a freight train. I'm sorry I wasn't ready
for it and reacted badly.

Perhaps we can exchange some emails. I've gone through four drafts now
trying to write one but none were right. I'm too raw. I'm not calm
now. You're probably VERY upset and I hope you're not - please accept
my sincerest apologies for the big part I played in that.

But we cannot talk anymore. The agenda is wrong.

I'll understand if you don't message for some time, I certainly need
time to sort things. I certainly need some time.

Very best regards,

P.

So there's that. Fuck it. Maybe I can actually move on after six years. Also? Rude. Agenda. Fuck you dude. Being in love is not an agenda. It means I want to be around you and for you to be happy. If you cant cope with that, you dont deserve my love. I'll use it on someone else. Peace.

Feel free to comment if you wanna help me rant out some of this love/rage in the comments.

Fuck him.

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