ive noticed that my life tends to work in cycles. and i revert back to past behaviors very quickly. right now im feeling a repeat of last spring coming on.
if you knew me then or what i was going thru then, youll know thats not a good thing.
but hell, im running out of options here.

eeek. life is a mess. im a bit disappointed in myself as of late... id rather not divulge much on here. but yeah, it isnt pretty.
hopefully this week wont drag too much.
next weekend is u of i, assuming allison gets things straightened out w/ her rents, and my rents stop complaining.
then 2 weeks, then spring break.
i want this year to end. asap.

i feel tacky posting this in a journal, yet id feel insensitive to not mention it ( Read more... )

weirdness. half of my friends are clueless to the fact that anything is wrong.
yet one of my teachers notices and repeatedly asks me about it, telling me that he wants to help and that i can come to him if i need anything. how oddly the world works.

tonight has drained me.
thank you to those select few who were there for me tonight.

so im super tired and i have lots o' homework left. yet still this seems like a more appealing use of my time ( Read more... )

well i find myself writing in here cuz this is the first bit of downtime that ive really had recently. i would write all about the results of my xrays / lung issues on here, but i figure anyone that im remotely close w/ knows already, so theres no point in publicly divulging that info, right ( Read more... )

why my head is about to explode ( Read more... )

a brief history of the deterioration of my health ( Read more... )

eeek i havent updated in a while.... hmm, theres not all that much to report. last monday i went to bright eyes @ the riv, and it was spectacular. big thumbs up to both conor's amazingness as well as the awesomeness of scott, dolan, and kel, with whom i spent my conor-evening. so yes that was grand, then finals week followed. i must say, ive gotten ( Read more... )