we broke up.its been 2 months apart.i miss him so much.im kind of dating his friend.but i cant let go of erik.i care about him so much.he doesnt seem happy.i know id have fun if i go out with this new guy,but a part of me cant stop thinking about&missing erik.he's the love of my life.and everyone wants me to choose the new guy,but no i want my baby ( Read more... )

whoa LJ is all new&improved.weird.Its almosy february.yay.im overwhelmed.I gotta plan eriks bday party, something for his actual bday,valentines day,our one year anniversary,and king's ball.And dance invitational is the day before his party,so ill have a bunch of rehearsals that week.GEESH!But itll all be worth it=)

Much Love,Kayla

I'm broken.I hate this.I'm miserable.I want to smile and meant it. I just want my baby to be mine.

Erik broke up with me for good.I've been bawling all day.I feel empty.Nothings ever hurt this bad before.A million questions are stampeding through my head.I want to hate him,but I cant.Im in love with him.I wanna say hes a jerk and Ill be better off without him.But thats not true at all.I dont know what thought 2 fall asleep 2 2night.I dont have a ( Read more... )

So I'm alive.I've been banned from the internet,so im here sneaking on.Over the past 3 or so weeks,I've felt I went to hell and back.TERRIBLE fights with parents,me and erik broke up once for 2 hours,I'm not even living with my dad anymore.My pillows are literally stained with black smeared all over them,its awful.I dont want things to be like this ( Read more... )

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Me and erik got in a big fight last night.It was so hard and upsetting.I was soooo hurt.I cried.and i got sick and blehhhhhhhh,yep threw up.It was disgusting.Into the Woods was good.I dont really like that show in itself,but the cast was fabulous as always.Its always nice 2 see them.Im so tired.I was up all night.=(. School is so hard.Boyfriends ( Read more... )

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Oh hello.Life is okay.I still feel empty.I don't know whats wrong and what more I want in life.I don't like who I am.I don't like her.I don't like her anymore.I have 2 get braces soon.Then I'll hate my smile even more.I am the most ridiculousy jealous person in the world.Its insane.I never was jealous before. I mean besides typical like"oh that ( Read more... )

Time is the weirdest thing in the world to me. Sometimes I think there aren’t enough hours in the day. Sometimes I’m counting down the minutes until something. Sometimes I can’t wait for it to be nightime, so that I can go to bed and wake up with a new day. It’s the times with him that are the happiest times of my life. The times I’m with him, time ( Read more... )