NOT ILL, NOT GETTING ILL, NO FLU FOR ME THANK YOU

Also... I finally did it and sent the email (admittedly after he bullied me about it a bit). I don't know why I find it upsetting, exactly. It's a professional matter, and I'm not undermining him at all, I'm just outgrowing what I've got at the moment... Where these tears are from, I don't know.

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TIme for a change. New journal layout theme thing, new user pic. To reflect more accurately who I am now, and what I do.

Still can't quite capture the chaos of my life, or the disorganisation, but never mind. I tried.

Flat is a tip. Housemate has buggered off and has not contributed to clearing up in days, maybe in weeks. Spends all his time eating ( Read more... )

I want to BUY THINGS. I just ordered a t-shirt that says "Broke Phi Broke" on it, because it's true, and still I am looking at new ipods, new speakers, etc. Just things. I don't know why ( Read more... )

I miss him. How silly of me. But every time I glance up from my computer, I see the big bunch of white lilies that he brought me, all opening and looking beautiful, and I get a bit pathetic. I really am such a sucker ( Read more... )

Aaaaaaaaaaaand, I'm awake because...? Nearly 3am and I'm still wide awake. Faffing. Thinking. Imagining.

Lame.

I am seriously tired... Almost unhealthily so ( Read more... )

Passed my driving test!! YAY!!!

Oh god, why why why do I do this to myself?

Curiosity is so dangerous. So good at unravelling careful work, uncovering what's so carefully buried...

I'm just an idiot... A big, stressed, tired idiot who can't switch off, can't let things go.

What to do, I wonder...?

Just keep going... What else is there?

Things I like ( Read more... )

WTF am I doing ( Read more... )