[sunday_reveries] Unlocking
(Warning for mature sexual content. Claudia as mentioned is an NPC by imnot_likeyou)
"It's a lot easier to be lost than found. It's the reason we're always searching and rarely discovered--so many locks not enough keys." ~Sarah Dessen
Rachel dropped the robe from her body and took a moment to look at herself in the mirror. She had been ashamed of her body for a long time. Confused by it. She didn't think anything looked right, between her hips, her arms, her ass...any of it. But now she saw it differently. She didn't hate it.
She stepped over the side of the tub and lowered herself into the hot water, giving a long relaxed groan as she did. She let her body slip down against the tub, the water curling around her. It felt fantastic. Every inch of feeling on her skin felt heightened, and she wanted to just melt right there in the water.
Her body hadn't stopped humming for days. Every touch and every move was so much more than it ever had been. And all that she could think about was Claudia and the way she had touched Rachel. She moaned just at the thought of it.
Rachel had never been an overly-sexual person before. She didn't find herself getting turned on easy, and she didn't find herself fantasizing. Before. Before when she thought there was just something wrong with her libido. She figured her body was broken, and no matter what a guy did, he couldn't give her an orgasm. She didn't do it often for herself, because she could never get herself to relax enough, disgusted by her own body. She dreaded the thought of a guy touching her, or even kissing her. So she hardly dated, and just kept to her family and friends.
Until Claudia.
Now it was all she could do to not fantasize. She couldn't stop thinking about Claudia's lips on hers, her tongue against her own. Her lips, her kisses, had been warm and soft. Unlike a guy, with a rough mouth and hard tongue. Even when Claudia kissed her like she was going to devour her...it was soft. And Rachel liked it. God did she like it. Her entire body woke up to it. She felt places tingle that had never tingled before.
Rachel moaned softly as she shifted in the water and it started to move against her in all the right places. She thought about Claudia's tongue more. On her neck, on her breasts, on her stomach, and...before it wasn't anything she thought could feel pleasurable. Having someone there. But it was. It felt so damn good.
Her fingers ran against her own stomach and her eyes closed as she continued to remember it all. The way Claudia's skin felt under her fingertips. Her body pressing down on Rachel's and the taste of her skin. Claudia's hands on her...touching and feeling...
She moved her hand down her body, picturing it as someone else's hand. The small, gentle hand that moved slowly, but with so much want. The hand that slid between her legs and inside of her, pulling Rachel to a place she had never found before. The feeling of someone else wanting her and needing her, and feeling it right back.
She could smell the girl's hair surrounding her, as it had muffled her moans. She could hear her whispers encouraging her to relax and let herself go, as Claudia's fingers explored further and further.
And she did. Rachel cried out and let go, sinking back into the water again. As she let go, tears came down her cheeks. Her body was still trembling, the buzz weaving it's way through, and she cried. Her hands brushed over her face and she fell under the water completely, before pulling up again.
She was normal. She finally felt normal. Her body worked. And it wasn't just the fact that she was finally able to have a body shaking orgasm, either. It was...everything. She understood herself at last. She started to realize what old feelings had been that she hadn't understood before. She could place that feeling from the time she found a skin mag in the twins' room. She'd been turned on. She'd been younger, and she saw breasts, and it had turned her on.
Her hands moved against her body, this time just acknowledging it there, more so than for the ecstasy. Her skin, her arms, her breasts...it was all her. And she was Rachel. And Rachel was gay. She knew it in every inch of herself. This wasn't some college girl experiment, she wasn't fifty-fifty...she liked women. She liked Claudia. Claudia could get her off. She could get herself off just thinking about Claudia. The thought of Claudia getting her off wouldn't leave her mind. She wanted it. Again and again and again.
I'm Rachel, she thought in her head. Rachel, Rachel, Rachel....
For once, it actually meant something to her. And as she lay in the tub, crying, a smile was on her lips.
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"It's a lot easier to be lost than found. It's the reason we're always searching and rarely discovered--so many locks not enough keys." ~Sarah Dessen
Rachel dropped the robe from her body and took a moment to look at herself in the mirror. She had been ashamed of her body for a long time. Confused by it. She didn't think anything looked right, between her hips, her arms, her ass...any of it. But now she saw it differently. She didn't hate it.
She stepped over the side of the tub and lowered herself into the hot water, giving a long relaxed groan as she did. She let her body slip down against the tub, the water curling around her. It felt fantastic. Every inch of feeling on her skin felt heightened, and she wanted to just melt right there in the water.
Her body hadn't stopped humming for days. Every touch and every move was so much more than it ever had been. And all that she could think about was Claudia and the way she had touched Rachel. She moaned just at the thought of it.
Rachel had never been an overly-sexual person before. She didn't find herself getting turned on easy, and she didn't find herself fantasizing. Before. Before when she thought there was just something wrong with her libido. She figured her body was broken, and no matter what a guy did, he couldn't give her an orgasm. She didn't do it often for herself, because she could never get herself to relax enough, disgusted by her own body. She dreaded the thought of a guy touching her, or even kissing her. So she hardly dated, and just kept to her family and friends.
Until Claudia.
Now it was all she could do to not fantasize. She couldn't stop thinking about Claudia's lips on hers, her tongue against her own. Her lips, her kisses, had been warm and soft. Unlike a guy, with a rough mouth and hard tongue. Even when Claudia kissed her like she was going to devour her...it was soft. And Rachel liked it. God did she like it. Her entire body woke up to it. She felt places tingle that had never tingled before.
Rachel moaned softly as she shifted in the water and it started to move against her in all the right places. She thought about Claudia's tongue more. On her neck, on her breasts, on her stomach, and...before it wasn't anything she thought could feel pleasurable. Having someone there. But it was. It felt so damn good.
Her fingers ran against her own stomach and her eyes closed as she continued to remember it all. The way Claudia's skin felt under her fingertips. Her body pressing down on Rachel's and the taste of her skin. Claudia's hands on her...touching and feeling...
She moved her hand down her body, picturing it as someone else's hand. The small, gentle hand that moved slowly, but with so much want. The hand that slid between her legs and inside of her, pulling Rachel to a place she had never found before. The feeling of someone else wanting her and needing her, and feeling it right back.
She could smell the girl's hair surrounding her, as it had muffled her moans. She could hear her whispers encouraging her to relax and let herself go, as Claudia's fingers explored further and further.
And she did. Rachel cried out and let go, sinking back into the water again. As she let go, tears came down her cheeks. Her body was still trembling, the buzz weaving it's way through, and she cried. Her hands brushed over her face and she fell under the water completely, before pulling up again.
She was normal. She finally felt normal. Her body worked. And it wasn't just the fact that she was finally able to have a body shaking orgasm, either. It was...everything. She understood herself at last. She started to realize what old feelings had been that she hadn't understood before. She could place that feeling from the time she found a skin mag in the twins' room. She'd been turned on. She'd been younger, and she saw breasts, and it had turned her on.
Her hands moved against her body, this time just acknowledging it there, more so than for the ecstasy. Her skin, her arms, her breasts...it was all her. And she was Rachel. And Rachel was gay. She knew it in every inch of herself. This wasn't some college girl experiment, she wasn't fifty-fifty...she liked women. She liked Claudia. Claudia could get her off. She could get herself off just thinking about Claudia. The thought of Claudia getting her off wouldn't leave her mind. She wanted it. Again and again and again.
I'm Rachel, she thought in her head. Rachel, Rachel, Rachel....
For once, it actually meant something to her. And as she lay in the tub, crying, a smile was on her lips.
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