Interview tml, tummy not very obedient...

[dandelion_float]

The publishing company agreed to see me to interview me tml. Ok, I need my transcripts, cert and a decent outfit. And bring make-up kit. Journey to work will take almost 2 hours, so no more late nights for me, but it's good, time to beef up my resume

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[dandelion_float]

The more I say, the more daggers I get.

I am in a tug of war between the love of what the Christians/Anglos say (unconditional, passionate, consumed?), and the calculated type of the Chinese (rational, interdependence, security?). At the end of the day, I am torn apart.

Or perhaps, I got it all wrong.

[dandelion_float]

And why do I have to say I dun enjoy something, when I really do? Why do I say I dun have feelings, when I actually do?

Because whenever I do that, I am shot down by cynic remarks. And what I have gets taken away. Just like how people call their newborn sons by female names, so jealous spirits cannot kill them. And if you are too nice in a relationship, people take advantage of you. Girls cannot appear too "desperate". I have done so too many times, and got torn down by strangers and family alike for it.

In short, I am a coward. And I dunno when to show genuinity, and when to conceal my feelings.