That entire paragraph is exactly how I feel, and I mean exactly. I've experienced every single incident and feeling you've described to the T, and every social "mistake" I make drives me further and further into reclusion from any kind of social life at all. I have my own personal way of "dealing" with it all, though I wouldn't recommend it, so I'm not actually going elaborate. And I too went to CAPS about two weeks ago. The person I saw recommended that I have more sessions (thank God), but the woman I was recommended to didn't have any openings for four more weeks, so I've still got two left until I get to see someone again. And I'm literally counting down the days. Anyway, this comment probably didn't help you any, but just know that you're not the only one who feels like this. You and me, baby. Good luck Tuesday. I hope things get better for you. :)
You've acknowledged the emotions and you're going to do something about it. I'm not sure if you experienced it, but doing that much is extremely difficult for many depressed people - so having reached this point is already a very positive step. Good for you. I've gone through a name change since you last posted, but I'm still around. I would recommend making sure that you are as honest as possible with your counselor, that way you will best be able to judge by their reactions if you 'click' well with them. I would think that they understand this, and won't mind if you bounce around a little before you decide on one to commit to on a weekly basis perhaps. It's a decision I made a couple years ago that I do not at all regret. Good luck, and best wishes.
The Friday Morning paragraph is also the heart of the issues that I have as well. The only "solution" that I've found works for me is keeping myself as busy as possible such that I don't have time to analyze what my friends are doing. I realize that this is more of a band-aid, but its the only way I have to deal with it at the moment.
If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to IM me. I'd love to talk. :)
I sincerely hope that you find some help there. Remember, though; when you start to get those feelings, get control by counting your breaths, and make "I am a worthwhile human being" your mantra. Because you are. Never forget that.
it's really hard sharing your desperation with someone else, trust me, I know. I also know what it's like when there seems to be no one to turn to. is there a counselor on campus you can talk to?
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That entire paragraph is exactly how I feel, and I mean exactly. I've experienced every single incident and feeling you've described to the T, and every social "mistake" I make drives me further and further into reclusion from any kind of social life at all. I have my own personal way of "dealing" with it all, though I wouldn't recommend it, so I'm not actually going elaborate.
And I too went to CAPS about two weeks ago. The person I saw recommended that I have more sessions (thank God), but the woman I was recommended to didn't have any openings for four more weeks, so I've still got two left until I get to see someone again.
And I'm literally counting down the days.
Anyway, this comment probably didn't help you any, but just know that you're not the only one who feels like this. You and me, baby. Good luck Tuesday. I hope things get better for you. :)
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The Friday Morning paragraph is also the heart of the issues that I have as well. The only "solution" that I've found works for me is keeping myself as busy as possible such that I don't have time to analyze what my friends are doing. I realize that this is more of a band-aid, but its the only way I have to deal with it at the moment.
If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to IM me. I'd love to talk. :)
Feel better. :)
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