I'm not really sure how much social confusion/awkwardness and inflicted guilt my life can take right now. I'm trying. But I'm always trying.

Summertime. I love the sound & feel of that word. What a nice one I’ve been having. Starting with the strange week involving the extremely successful bake-off, Alex’s party.., the last of people coming home, and finally finishing the first year of culinary, it has been good. I’ve been waking up late everyday, doing my best to forget what 7am looks ( Read more... )

I just reread all my posts on here from the last year and it's a strange mix of things. I don't write all that often and it's interesting the times I chose to write here instead of in my journal...I also see a lot of growth in my thought process and my life since I started school. My how my relationships in college have changed since first quarter ( Read more... )

What an excellent month I've been having. All the pieces are falling in place. The world just seems so right and like everything has a reason even the awful things and I wish I could share it with everyone I meet, but at the same time, I don’t want anyone to feel like I’m shoving my idealistic happiness in their face. This year has held so much ( Read more... )

I feel contented for the first time in a long time. Things are not perfect. If fact, some things are still really bad and I still have moments where I feel things I'd rather not admit to and remember. But it feels in perspective at the moment ( Read more... )

I should be sleeping. Or voting. but instead, I'm thinking. I can't focus, but I guess I'm doing alright ( Read more... )

Man do I feel dramatic. My perspective has drastically changed in a way I vaguely understand, but I can’t exactly describe. Lets just call it magic. But now I’m so full of positive vibes, I want the world to shine with them. I want to turn the dull bright and glittering. And I’m starting to feel like I can a little. That’s the magic. Nothing has ( Read more... )

I'm not sure if I like Clark. It's definitely not a very eye opening experience. I feel like I'm reverting not growing, but actually I know I'm being stretched, just not in ways I was prepared for. If my program is so much shorter, why is it so easy? Did I cop out? Am I unintentionally not living up to my potential? Do I want to include more art in ( Read more... )

FYI, none of this is important. I'm too lazy to get out a notebook, so to livejournal it goes ( Read more... )

Is strange. Here's how it's gone so far. Get up at 5:30, get to class by seven. Walk into a room of first and second year kids and then the second year kids go and make food because they're on it. That leaves me, 3 girls my ageish, a woman and her husband, a grandma, 8 guys about my age, and 5 older guys. No one talks even though we have 10 minute ( Read more... )